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Also, my mother has schizophrenia. And I feel I cannot think straight, but I'm not sure if that's because of ADHD, depression or what. I also notice my speech can be odd at times. I also had a friend that I knew for possibly five or six years, but my social anxiety around him remained. I never trusted him and thought he might even be using me. I generally just distrust people. My maternal grandfather is diagnosed with schizotypal PD by my maternal grandmother who is a licensed social worker. I'm in isolation, but I want a social life with quality friends. And also a romantic life. But I can't have those because of my social anxiety, excessive introversion and general suspiciousness of people. I also tend to not be very facially expressive. I have to force facial expressions. I also have had ideas of reference when someone posted something on social media. I made a whole bunch of connections but I don't know if that's just paranoia. And I also thought a girl that was (temporarily) interested in me was working for the government. I also tend to go on tangents unless I force myself not to. I used to be a believer of many conspiracy theories and was an ardent fundamentalist Christian until I lost my faith. Now I've lost what little identity I had. I have had moments of believing in ESP and other paranormal/psychic things. I also felt evil presences without seeing or hearing anything. I don't think I've ever had an episode of psychosis though. Only while under the influence of cannabis have I felt anything like psychosis, although that probably doesn't count. It was like, I felt spiders were biting me, I heard my thoughts, and I was sort of delusional but I didn't let anyone know. I just wrote down my thoughts and then when I was sober I looked at them and realized how crazy they were. I'm also diagnosed with ADHD. I can't focus or anything. I have deficits in my auditory processing. So do I have schizotypal PD? Thank you if you read this whole thing. Last edited by omofca; Sep 14, 2013 at 08:45 PM.. |
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