Starting school again

Hello everyone,

I stumbled across this site while looking for help online and decided to join. For the past 10 years I've had pretty bad social anxiety, agoraphobia, and depression that became very overwhelming at one point. I dropped out of high school due to not being able to leave the house. Eventually I finished through homeschooling and started to get better at dealing with my issues. I started working and started college. I began working more and taking less hours per semester. After doing this for about three years I realized it was going to take me a while to finish college so I decided to quit my job and focus 100% on being a full time student. It also helped that I figured out a career I wanted to pursue so had goals set. Last semester was my first full time semester in a while and I did fairly well. I still had my occasional panic attack every once in a while in class which would make me either step out or leave class early. It was nothing I really couldn't handle I guess. I enjoyed winter break for the most part by relaxing at home or hanging out with friends (don't really care for holidays due to levels of stress that surround me). I registered for this semester and had been looking pretty forward to it because if I worked hard I would be that much closer to my goal. School started the other day and I went to class and started freaking out and left. It happened in another class and another and I've already started missing classes because I'm just dreading it. I just don't want to really go to class because it's hard for me to sit still, relax, and pay attention. I don't know what to do since I still want to go full time, but it's so hard for me and it's already too late to switch classes. I've scheduled an appointment with my old therapist and I'm hoping it'll help. My family has never really understood and neither have my friends so I feel I really have no one to talk to about this. I don't know it's pretty frustrating I've always felt "one step forward two steps back." I guess I don't expect anyone here to help I just wanted to get it off my chest and talk to someone who might have experienced the same thing because no one around where I am gets me. Thanks for listening maybe I can help someone too.

(((((((((((Noodles))))))))))))))))))

Does your school have a disability centre? Somewhere you'd go to talk about accomodations based on disability? Or perhaps someone like that you can talk to? Social anxiety is a real disorder, and if your school offers it - then there is things they can do to help you so you don't flunk out because of an inability to stay in class.

Hello, Noodles. I hope you find a way to become more comfortable in class again. Good luck.

How are you doing with school, Noodles?