[MonarkWing]

When I'm trying not to drown in my own self pity, I pay attention to my classmates. And I worry about them. I always wonder what goes on when they get home, are they still virgins anymore? Do their fathers or mothers hurt them? I had a friend that stepfather raped her often, now she moved away (stepfather in jail) I just worry about them (on the days I don't hate them) Is it just this century, like as the world changes they change? It's just they're growing up too fast. I know a majority of my classmates don't have very loving homes, I wish I could do anything to help. But if I ever got the opertunity to help them, I'd mess it up somehow because I never have the answers, I need to have the answers when the time comes, because I wouldn't be suprised if one of my classmates would try to bomb the school. A lot of them have lost their faith in God as well, it may not be my buisness, but I feel so useless standing in the backround. Even though they don't care about me I can't help but care about them.

(I'm not sure why I wrote this exactly, I just need to know the right words.. I don't know)

Hello, MonarkWing. I am not sure there are right (or wrong) words necessarily. Words that show you care work.

Be well.

[(JD)]

Hi there. See if you can channel some of that energy you're wasting worrying and wondering into effort to become someone who can help others in the future. Many of those with such a caring spirit go into the helping professions. There you can learn how to dump the bad stuff of worrying and feed the good thoughts and efforts.

How do you feel about yourself right now might be most important.

[madisgram]

MonWing, you somewhat answered your own concern/question. the ppl you worry about you have no control over what happens in their lives. if you put the focus on you, you can become the person YOU want to be/become. that way you can influence ppl by your conduct. it's like living by example.
and whayt JD said, you can channel your future to help those less fortunate.
hope this helps you.