Hello

I've been worrying about some thing. My future seems hopeless. I'm at college and I'm studying Health and social care. I have less than a year to go. I haven't even done a placement yet because me being late because the night before I had a interview, I drank alcohol and got drunk. I'm such a stupid person. I wanted to be a nurse but I don't think I want to be one because it might be too emotional for me. I would like to be a photographer. People have commented on my photography. I do this as a hobby. They said it was good. Whenever a tutor asks me about university or UCAS (application for university), I just say I don't want to go to university. I can't pay for the UCAS because I don't have £20 (around that amount). University might be hard and difficult. If I did assignments for university, I would struggle. Apparently if someone does one mistake on an assignment such as not referencing, they fail straight away. I don't know what to do... Seriously, This is annoying me and I think of this sometimes. I see my future as hopeless. I don't like my life.. What's the point of living? Sometimes I wonder whether I should live anymore... I might fail my current course but I'm not sure. Everyone else in my class and around me are happy and have boyfriends and can drive.. But nah look at me.. I don't have a job and I don't have a boyfriend. Some people ask me about whether I'm going to have driving lessons but I tell them that I can't afford driving lessons. I don't like being an 18 year old... I would rather be a child again... But there is too or some pressure when someone is 18. Can anyone give me advice? I'm kind of worrying about this. This issue is on my mind some of the time.

[venusss]

You can try Uni... yes, the assignments are hard, but they are mostly interesting. Referencing for example is a pain, but there are tutorials for it. And you can always ask the profesor if you are having difficulties. You have to thrust yourself into it. Which has a big advantage, because you worry about science and not about yourself that much (that is not a jab at you... it's me who replaces my own misery with West Bank blues).

I am not sure about being a nurse... but about photography I can tell you it's not something to make living with really. You can try it for occasionally cash though. And as for getting recognition, always carry the camera with you if you have some portable digital. Take pictures if there is something happening (I am not talking about accidents... but if there is happening, or snow storm, etc.) and send them ASAP to local news servers (my friend his name in several papers this way when he took picture of trams stucking in snowstorm).

Life is difficult. And you have to fill the tedious days between birth and death with something. You may as well make it something worthwhile. Sit down and think what you want to do. Be realistic, but not too doom and gloom.

Originally Posted by VenusHalley

You can try Uni... yes, the assignments are hard, but they are mostly interesting. Referencing for example is a pain, but there are tutorials for it. And you can always ask the profesor if you are having difficulties. You have to thrust yourself into it. Which has a big advantage, because you worry about science and not about yourself that much (that is not a jab at you... it's me who replaces my own misery with West Bank blues).

I am not sure about being a nurse... but about photography I can tell you it's not something to make living with really. You can try it for occasionally cash though. And as for getting recognition, always carry the camera with you if you have some portable digital. Take pictures if there is something happening (I am not talking about accidents... but if there is happening, or snow storm, etc.) and send them ASAP to local news servers (my friend his name in several papers this way when he took picture of trams stucking in snowstorm).

Life is difficult. And you have to fill the tedious days between birth and death with something. You may as well make it something worthwhile. Sit down and think what you want to do. Be realistic, but not too doom and gloom.

Thank you for your reply I guess I have to think about it.

[SophiaG]

You are becoming an adult and it is natural for things to feel overwhelming right now. You should focus on the transition, take one step at a time. You'll gain confidence and independence through the process.

Originally Posted by SophiaG

You are becoming an adult and it is natural for things to feel overwhelming right now. You should focus on the transition, take one step at a time. You'll gain confidence and independence through the process.

Yeah I am and it's too much being an adult sometimes. Thank you for your advice I will try to take one step at a time.