[danii24]

i just started college this year. ive been tryn hard for 4 years tryn to get accepted. i did this year and i jus did 1st year going into 2nd year in sep. i found the whole thing so over welming. then my depression got worse nd i ended up failing. i can repeat but im so worried i wont get bac in. if i dnt gt bac into college ill have nothin.

did ne1 else find it so overwelming. days i cudnt go in because there was to many people and i jus couldnt cope

Hello, danii24. Have you explained your circumstances to college officials? Perhaps, they might make some accommodations for you?

[HalfSwede]

Danii

I cut class a lot in my first go-round in college to go drinking or do even dumber things. Looking back, it was probably because I was depressed. I'm in grad school now, and there were some days early on when I'd practically be crying on the drive in to school.

I don't know if it helps at all to know others have had the same experience, but there are a lot of similar stories to yours and mine on these forums. Hang in there and be kind to yourself. It can't be said often enough that depression is an incredibly tough thing to deal with, and school really brings out the worst of it somehow. Works does, too. Any situation where there are a lot of demands placed on you.

HS

[danii24]

Thanks for oyur posts. i dnt like to tell the college im depressed because it always makes me feel like im using it as an excuse. dumb i no but it makes me feel worse to know that people no

[Catlovers141]

One thing that might help you is going to your college's disability services. I don't think that technically depression is classified as a disability, but at least at my college disability services will help you with mental health issues. With people I know, the have allowed students more time to turn in assignments, provided classrooms for people to take their exams by themselves if being near other people caused anxiety, etc.

I know it can sometimes feel like depression is just an excuse -- I feel that way sometimes too. But it is important to remember that if you could do the work, I think you would. The fact that you are caring about how you are doing academically shows that you want to do well and aren't just blowing things off for no reason. Depression has a biological basis and is not just an excuse. Get the help you need and deserve!