For me, it was a depressing look back, and a reminder that I haven't changed.

The customary comment was:

'Toilet really doesn't hand in enough work for me to properly assess him other than to say that he needs to make an effort'

I also came across some of my biology homework. It looked pretty daunting to me, and I can sort of understand why I avoided doing any work. Or maybe it looked daunting because I didn't do any of the work. Probably a bit of both. I had, and continue to have, a low tolerance for any sort of difficulty, and will stop making an effort whenever there is any resistance

I guess the depressing part is how little I have changed.

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@ Illegal: or perhaps you have low tolerance for boredom...or perhaps you know that frustration makes you lash out so you avoided difficult work out of respect for others' comfort.

@Roaming: don't log out without reading my PM from 20 minutes ago!

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[RoamingMind]

Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet

For me, it was a depressing look back, and a reminder that I haven't changed.

The customary comment was:

'Toilet really doesn't hand in enough work for me to properly assess him other than to say that he needs to make an effort'

I also came across some of my biology homework. It looked pretty daunting to me, and I can sort of understand why I avoided doing any work. Or maybe it looked daunting because I didn't do any of the work. Probably a bit of both. I had, and continue to have, a low tolerance for any sort of difficulty, and will stop making an effort whenever there is any resistance

I guess the depressing part is how little I have changed.

I guess the depressing part is how little I have changed.

1. I have changed

2. little- Every little bit counts

3. how

You recognized that you HAVE changed. The how part is the fact that you see how you've changed. Every little bit of change counts, that's why you take it in to a bank and trade it in for cash

You now recognize were your flaws lay, and you see a flaw you had back then.

Biology? Were you ever even interested in it? If not it doesn't matter now.
What are you interested in and have you felt even a tiny bit of progress in it? Please do tell.

[PsychiatricEnigma]

Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet

For me, it was a depressing look back, and a reminder that I haven't changed.

The customary comment was:

'Toilet really doesn't hand in enough work for me to properly assess him other than to say that he needs to make an effort'

I also came across some of my biology homework. It looked pretty daunting to me, and I can sort of understand why I avoided doing any work. Or maybe it looked daunting because I didn't do any of the work. Probably a bit of both. I had, and continue to have, a low tolerance for any sort of difficulty, and will stop making an effort whenever there is any resistance

I guess the depressing part is how little I have changed.

It is weird looking back on old stuff like that isn't it? I still have my homework diaries from secondary school (year 8 - year 12) in a box somewhere (just sentimental value now..) and it is weird looking through them, like my old timetables and little notes I used to make. But it's the same with old emails/forum posts/etc. I haven't changed at all since then except maybe a tad wiser, but I'm not really surprised.

School just wasn't your thing back then and perhaps it's not now, though would you prefer it to be? I mean to get back into formal education (if you're not already).

[di meliora]

During my time, what you describe lead to the label of lazy.

Originally Posted by PsychiatricEnigma

School just wasn't your thing back then and perhaps it's not now, though would you prefer it to be? I mean to get back into formal education (if you're not already).

Nothing is my thing . . . I just don't do anything, ever. People ask me for my hobbies, and I have nothing to answer with.

I have been thinking of doing some study at my age, which is 33.

Originally Posted by di meliora

During my time, what you describe lead to the label of lazy.

Pardon? Sorry, I just don't understand your sentence.

[Perna]

Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet

The customary comment was:

'Toilet really doesn't hand in enough work for me to properly assess him other than to say that he needs to make an effort'

Mine were more succinct, "Good ability, poor performance".

[Travelinglady]

Ha! Wouldn't it be fun to just burn them all and officially start over! (Just a thought.) I don't care to see my previous report cards either.

[honeybee777]

Originally Posted by di meliora

During my time, what you describe lead to the label of lazy.

LAZY?!? Yeah must be like 50 or so LMAO, thats somithing my mother would say!!! Did you EVER think it could be aspergers or add or adhd, my daughter has both and she sould of been BRANDED LAZY as well, thank GOD our times have evoloved!!!!!! Toilet, I know you and your great, I trust you and know you can do anything that you want to do!!!! Whether its videos or Dominerring lol, or sitting and chatting with me and helping me throuhg my situations with cancer, hubby, my spinal tumor and or my sexual challenges, your an awesome hubby adn you ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks bee, you make some good points. I actually don't know if laziness actually exists as a personality trait or whether it's always been some sort of mood problem, or a transient feeling.

You're the best fake wife I've ever had.

[eskielover]

You sound exactly like my husband......however, he got the good grades through high school, then in college, he thought he was smarter than all the prof's except those in classes he liked so he wouldn't bother doing the work other than just enough to get by.....then he wondered why the company he was working for didn't want to hire him in a programming position........because his grades showed that he did enough to just get by & that wasn't the kind of programmer they wanted. He finally got a good position & that lasted while he felt good about the position......when that changed, he would go from company to company doing just enough to get by & then wondered why they didn't want to put him into a management position (yes, we all thought that management positions were for those who couldn't perform well.....raise to your highest level of incompetence).

Funny thing was that I was just the opposite of him (yes, we clashed because of it often & it did finally destroy the marriage)......I got the good grades but only because I worked my tail off to get the good grades, they didn't come easy. I always put more work into a class than was required but always learned more than was required also & really enjoyed learning (still do). My GPA got me several really good job offers even before graduation with my degree. Each job & put 200% of myself into (also my escape from my marriage) but I loved the programming engineering jobs I had.......funny thing is that even with my drive, when the industry collapsed, my career ended even before my husband's did......ended up in major depression because of it & wanted way too many times to end my life. Just goes to prove that having drive isn't what life is all about & being the best doesn't always assure success.

I sometimes think that having less drive would have kept me from having my loss of career feel less devistating......take things more in stride. I definitely know that having the drive I did, didn't buy me any kind of success. Would I go back I do anything differently.....probably not because my personality is more like a perfectionist (at some level) & I do still like to learn everything I can possibly learn about a subject whether it's something I will use of not.

But definitely being the straight A student didn't make life any better in the long run. Will I change because of it.....I doubt it. I think our drive is what it is & I think all we can do is the best we can given who we are & accept life we we deal with it.

[honeybee777]

Never divorce you either...your not that lucky ;(

[honeybee777]

Im not a fake wife lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!