[Nimportequoi]

So as the title already says. I have learned helplessness and find myself uncapable of initiating to do things that I feel I just can't. It's like this voice inside my head telling me "you can't do it anyway, so why studying/practising, who are you trying to decieve? You're an incapable person and trying to get competent won't work for you." It's basically severe procrastination. I won't have the same problem with any other subject, no matter whether I like it or not, because even though I feel I am an ineffective person I had good experiences with learning/paractising in other subjects. With maths it's the other way round, I always failed. The mixture of not believing in yourself and having actual ecperience of failure is not good. So sick of this. I feel helpless, hopeless.
There's a grading scope from 0-15 points, with 15 being the best score/A+. I need to have one point in that last test, otherwise I'll have to drop out from school. I feel so terrible. I'm so much done. I hate myself and the world.

Sorry if this is lengthy/pointless.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Nimportequoi: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time with this. I know what it is like. Math was always my absolute worst subject! Oh... well... & then there were languages... I'm amazed I ever made it through & embarrassed at what a train wreck it was. Somehow I did make it through though & once I did it was all good despite the mess I made of it along the way. I send warm thoughts of encouragement your way with the hope that you get that one point you need.

[Nimportequoi]

Hey Skeezyks
Thanks for your encouraging words. The test wasn't as bad as I thought. After I was finished, I looked through it again and I think I have an estimated 38% of the test right. That's not too bad for my conditions.