TIMES..self dicipline..TIME...rgggggggg!!!!!!

I plan to d osomething - i hardly do ****.
Look - yesterday i planned to do 5 illustration today. I am just getting started because i couldn`t resist reading a thriller - HAD to know the ned - so i went to sleep about 4 or 5 am.

I woke up and i have been trying to make a light table so that i can make the illustration better - nad i havd to go to the supermarket becaues i wanted something for breakfast that i didn`t have at hime - i needed coffere etc.

i am just so scared that i will not do things on tim ebecause it happened so many times b4.

anyways i better get to it instead of wasting more time

i just wanna know how much ppl do of what they plan and of they are as spoilt as i am -reading and eating ....

I often plan things, i love planning.
But in the end I don't get much of it done, even if i say, NOW i am starting to learn.
Well i do start, but like 5 min later, i find something else to do or just look like i am learning, while dreaming away or just learn things i already know and do perfectly fine.

Sometimes I even don't DO anything, i just lay around, doing nothing, not even thinking about something important or dreaming.I just lay there.

So i pretty much don't do any of the things i planned.
I just ignore them and forget them.
Even if i try hard to remember.

lol
interesting!
thats funny
I kow and remember but..too....i sometimes would sit....and somtimes get stuck

my question is exactly how the heck to get OUT OF THIS

have you ever thought?

Yeah, and I know there was a time when I could^^ I discovered it is way easier to learn, when you have somebody around to study with, or someone who asks you questions. Also giving private lessons helps you staying in touch with older stuff. If it get's too bad I normaly jell at myself until I do it, not the nicest way, but I do it. And sometimes I can learn, because I don't want to disappoint my prof... I don't really have a stragety, but I am working on one!

i am stuck with a palace i really want to draw i look at different palaces etc and they want me to do graphic design adn illustraiton at the same time

I DO work every day but still somehow it is not there - never on time and it stresses me the **** out of my mind and then i cry, bite myself and need to rest after all the pain. i hate it

i want it to be over