[Adelissa]

Hi, Sometimes I think I might be bipolar 2 instead of just depressed as I have some symptoms and am going to discuss that with my doctor, but I wanted to know, lately I feel like my mind is racing, to which I found out if you tell a doctor you have racing thoughts it is very different from what I am talking about. I don't hear snatches of conversation/music etc, what it is is like I gotta do this and this and this and then go here and there and before I know it I am completely exhausted and unfocused. It is almost like adult adhd without the hyperactivity (which as far as I know I don't have) but I am wondering if that is a symptom of depression, GAD, (both which I know I have) or could it be part of a hypomania phase. I know I am nothing like bipolar 1 because I have never had any kind of destructive or addicting behaviors (unless you count overeating once in a while, or occasionally wasting too much time on the computer) but anyway, I can usually compose a well thought out post without too much rambling but in my day to day, I can't be coherent to save my life, and my memory is so bad lately I had a ct scan of my brain to see if I have a tumor or something (ovarian cancer survivor). Like I went to walmart and as I am pulling into a drive through fast food place all of the sudden I was certain I just left my purchases in the buggy and never loaded the trunk and actually parked and checked to see and everything was in the trunk so I don't know if I am just so on autopilot I don't notice what I do and when I try to notice I can't think straight or what. And I never EVER forget doctor appointments for me or family and I totally forgot two in October and had to pay a fee for one of them for not canceling. Does any of this ring a bell? I just feel mental half the time and I am responsible for a lot, so when I can't even trust my mind it is a very scary place.

[unaluna]

Well you ARE under a LOT of stress right now, could it be from that? I have to write down (on my phone) all my appointments, even though some of them are exactly the same every week!

[Callmebj]

Hi Adelissa, I too have this problem when stressed. Focusing is hard to do and somewhere in my sub-conscious mind, things are flying around. When stress triggers anxiety, it will make me spend a lot of time doing something that usually is a small
job. I have PTSD, depression and anxiety problems. Here's hoping things level out for you. hugs, bj

[waynec]

Originally Posted by hankster

Well you ARE under a LOT of stress right now, could it be from that? I have to write down (on my phone) all my appointments, even though some of them are exactly the same every week!

i leave post it notes at various places to remind me. according to brain rules sress will interfere with memory. another thing i do is put certain items in "their" place so i know where they are. sometimes forgetting is just a lack of concentration of the moment. again stress will cause a loss of focus on the now.