[Poppy Princess]

I feel like no accomplishment brings me pleasure. I've tried a thousand things. Writing, drawing, sports, and just other stuff. Nothing makes me feel good though. I feel incredibly empty and pathetic. It's like nothing makes me happy.

[roads]

I may have been where you are: I called it my doggy-paddling-period. I didn't know where I was, & I had no idea of where I needed to be. A friend paddled alongside in her boat, ready to haul me in if I started sinking or to follow me if I started swimming off in some vague direction.
It was good knowing she was there.
I was depressed ... mostly just empty ... finally I did pull myself up onshore and pondered emptiness for a while.
I'm lots better now. I was physically in bad shape then, needed a med adjustment ... and needed to get through a deep depression, a great loss, and that I had to do it myself. A friend was there, simply with me, letting me know I was worth it.
PC is a good place to work things out.
Take all the time you need. You're worth it.
Roadie

[Sometimes psychotic]

How long has this feeling been going on? You sound depressed---often medication can be helpful for that but also cbt. One of the things I learned in cbt was that laughing by yourself for 10 minutes can help cheer you up...its sort of like how just smiling can make you feel a little better.

Another thing is self care but you need to find pleasure in something for that to work. Basically you add up your favorite things, not necessarily accomplishments but whatever you like to do. Your interests indicate coffee and smoking and writing, so do all three at once and see how you feel. Does going to a coffee shop feel better than being at home alone...then do that. Alternately maybe you can learn about different aspects of coffee, like how to make a latte at home, what varieties there are how much better freshly ground tastes. Maybe you can organize some sort of tasting party where everyone brings a different variety(try inviting the people from your work).

[Poppy Princess]

Writing is something I miss. I feel like I can't do it anymore. It's one of those things I used to like but don't anymore.

[Poppy Princess]

Well, yesterday my mother told me that I should stop writing. She eventually convinced me that it was probably better I didn't.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by ArmyGirl

Well, yesterday my mother told me that I should stop writing. She eventually convinced me that it was probably better I didn't.

Why not it seems harmless. If you enjoy it keep doing it.

[Poppy Princess]

She said that it wasting my time.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by ArmyGirl

She said that it wasting my time.

Wow that's harsh. I mean everyone needs something they love to do even if its just a hobby. I like to paint flowers...nobody but my mom would like them but I enjoy it so I do it anyway.

[H3rmit]

Originally Posted by ArmyGirl

She said that it wasting my time.

How would she know that? Why would she say that? Do you see any sense in it? I mean, isn't it up to you to decide?

[Poppy Princess]

I guess so. I just felt she was right in the moment :/ I don't know.

[redbandit]

Originally Posted by ArmyGirl

I guess so. I just felt she was right in the moment :/ I don't know.

If you like writing, you should do it. The only writing I usually do is journaling or occassionally a poem (have to have the muse). I think i'm kinda having a similar problem to you, I dont find any hobbies interesting anymore. But, its probably bcuz I'm depressed.