[machloe]

I have been struggling a lot over the last 3-4 years, I felt like I have changed to someone whom I don't even recognizes who I am anymore.. I used to be and know as helpful, kind, caring, nice, bubble, someone nice to be with. But I don't find this traits in me anymore. I became very unfriendly and will not even take any initiative to help or be nice to anyone if things doesn't benefit me (eg. Work). Even when I am with a group of friends I don't feel connected anymore... I doesn't want to be involved in anything and gradually I felt withdrawn... I just don't loved the people around me anymore... And I just hated people spending their attention on me...

Lately, I am having a hard time having or continuing a conversation with people around even with my close friends. I am also fear to open up and share or communicate with people around me. I have no reasons why but I am reluctant to open up to people.. Even when people try to get close with me.. I will have guard against them and become weary and doesn't wan to share anything with them about myself..

I am scared and I don't know what I am scared of... I fear but i have no idea what I fear of.. I have been "living in my own world" recently and I felt detached from the society and people.. I am afraid to love and be loved by people around me.. Are there anyone out there who feels the same way as me? Can anyone tell me what's wrong with me? Sign...

[Travelinglady]

Hi, machloe. I suggest you go to your primary care doc and tell him/her what is happening. Your issues will likey need professional treatment.

[machloe]

Hi Travelinglady
Yea I thought so too. But I thought of trying online counseling instead.. Not sure if you have any recommendation or advice for this..