Losing control of my life...

Hi there guys! I am going to keep this brief. I am about to be 25 years old in a couple days and there are some things that are depressing me.

Last year I decided to pursue my passion in music and dedicate full time to music since I was making decent money doing so... I quit my day job and did a couple of other good and bad choices. Today I am having one particular problem which is seriously affecting my overall health. I am still living with my parents and for about a year or so I have dreamed about being on my own... however I am the type of people who likes to do things right or atleast think I am...

My main issue is bad company. I keep finding myself hanging out with the wrong people over and over. I have always been a goal oriented person and usually stick to something until I am pretty good at it... I believe in myself a lot... but lately I feel like I have been hurting myself by being around people who do not make my life better.

Often when I hang out with these people my energy is drained... I do not feel like doing things I had planned... then a couple of days later I suffer the consequences with guilt. There are times I wake up feeling really stupid.... see the thing is I am no better than them when I am around them... I am also part of it. I have taken vacations and time for myself and I have seen good improvement. People love to be around me... I read a lot and usually can influence others... but when I go back to that bad circle its like I am useless. We usually end up doing very childish things and a lot of times either they end up making fun of me for something silly or we end up making fun of each other (I guess like "boys" do).

I am tired of this... I know I have a problem... but my main issue is that I solve it temporarily, things go well, then I go back to where I started.... I might have a great productive week, then see my results and for some reason I feel like I have to hang out with these people.... Sometimes when they had nothing to do with my success. It saddens me and depresses me that I do this to myself... and sometimes feel like my subconscious mind is so corrupted that I just fall back into misery with this bad company. I guess sometimes I think is the "hope" that we will all get better... but as time passes by I notice that it doesn't... instead the opposite happens.

There are times I just think about being plain cruel and cutting them off completely... because when I cut them off somehow my life gets more in order... yet for some reason my mind always finds a desire to share time with these "friends." Now do not get me wrong. I love my friends... but sometimes I feel like they drag me back by wasting time on unproductive things. As I mentioned... I love to read, do music, work out, etc so my mind and body are usually active... they are the opposite. I try to find people with the same desires as me but often I can't get used to new people... Can somebody please advice me on how to move on from this?

I have been working for myself for the past year and at sometimes I am doing good with money then I go broke... it depresses me... these last 2 weeks I decided to get training on real estate so I can go sell and make extra money so thats a new chapter of my life and I wish to start that chapter on the right path. I know some of my friends are toxic... I tell myself this everyday and I guess because I think so much about it I attract those situations even more.

Can somebody please give me some advice on how to go on with my life?

Hello, daman25, and welcome to Psych Central! You do sound like you have a level head. I agree that hanging around with certain people can bring us down. But, as you suggest, you are comfortable with them and having some trouble reaching out to new people.

I suggest you post about this issue in the Relationships and Communication forum and look at the Work and Careers forum to see if you would like to post there.

I think you will get some good advice from folks in those places.

I hope you can regain control over your life soon.