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Hi! I guess this isn’t a question, but more of a vent/ update.
It’s been a tough and eventful year. I graduated high school, moved into college, met new people, learned things about myself that I never could when I was stuck at home. I go back home today, unfortunately, but it’s been okay.
I think it’s time for me to start setting goals instead of just letting life pass me by, ya know?
I struggle emotionally and socially, so I want to see a therapist first and foremost. I still feel emotionally numb, and respond to situations innappropriatey, mostly with laughter- I find it hard to be serious. It feels vulnerable and embarrassing. It really affects my social relationships.. But other than that..
I want to join 2 clubs, get a job, get a cumulative gpa of at least 3.2 so that I can get into Phi Sigma Pi, volunteer, get down to a normal weight (so lose about 30 pounds). I have a lot I want to do but am held back by mental issues; I just wanna do better and push through. Focus on myself.

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Laughing a lot can be from holding emotions in for a long time or dealing with stress or just being nervous and then there are some people who just enjoy laughing. I don't like serious people unless it's an intense situation that requires seriousness like helping someone who has been injured or needs a shoulder to cry on. Any other time seriousness gets on my nerves. I used to be that way all of the time and it was making me miserable so I decided to change that and now I can let go and be silly and let my true feelings out. It's very liberating. By the way, why did the chicken cross the playground?

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Those are great goals, now how to achieve them..... I would suggest research and break them down, or you may get overwhelmed. Take one at a time. Plan, it helps!!