[Loose Screw x 2]

I normally don't hurt myself physically to the point of injury even though I am masochistic but, in the past I have self-punished for not standing up to bullies and people who have tried to exercise authority over me in different situations and sometimes just out of frustration and intense anger at myself for being so messed up or self hatred.
I have thought this over a lot and come to the conclusion that this may be the state of mind or alter that I refer to as "DH" who is very abusive in my mind anyway and he has, in the past even threatened to cut me if I do or don't do things that piss him off. Thankfully it has never gone beyond me or him, whichever one of us it is,

Possible trigger:

punching ourselves in the jaw, shredding our forearm skin with thorns from briers or cutting a shallow would with a dull shard of glass

after an argument with a family member.
What I want to know is has anyone else here cut out of pure frustration or self punishment?

[Skeezyks]

I've never cut out of frustration or self-punishment. But I've done other stuff out of frustration, self-hatred & self-punishment. (I'll spare you the details!) I have permanent physiological problems as a result of some of it. I'm not doing any of it anymore. But that's not to say the urge isn't there.

[Unhinged88]

Self hatred, definitely. Probably most of the times, actually.

Originally Posted by MavriforceK9r

people who have tried to exercise authority over me in different situations and sometimes just out of frustration and intense anger at myself for being so messed up or self hatred.

I have SI'd bc of those reasons. Actually the authority reason might have been the trigger for my first ever cut, and the feeling of oppression has remained ingrained in me since then, impacting everything I do.

another weird trigger is when I spend money or think something is overpriced.

[Kibou]

For me it's both :/

When I'm drown into anxiety and sad thoughts, I sometimes hurt myself to vent out the pain, and also because feeling physical pain helps me coming back to reality when i'm overthinking ^^"

And sometimes I jsut feel wrothless, weak, selfish, coward, a bad person who deserves to be hurt.

I'm so sorry you have been through bullying and self-injury though
*hugs tightly*

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by MavriforceK9r

I normally don't hurt myself physically to the point of injury even though I am masochistic but, in the past I have self-punished for not standing up to bullies and people who have tried to exercise authority over me in different situations and sometimes just out of frustration and intense anger at myself for being so messed up or self hatred.
I have thought this over a lot and come to the conclusion that this may be the state of mind or alter that I refer to as "DH" who is very abusive in my mind anyway and he has, in the past even threatened to cut me if I do or don't do things that piss him off. Thankfully it has never gone beyond me or him, whichever one of us it is,

Possible trigger:

punching ourselves in the jaw, shredding our forearm skin with thorns from briers or cutting a shallow would with a dull shard of glass

after an argument with a family member.
What I want to know is has anyone else here cut out of pure frustration or self punishment?

I am so sorry that you are struggling right now. It sound like you make have schizophrenic base on my experience with my brother and my research that i had done. I have self harm as a punishment myself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by MavriforceK9r

I normally don't hurt myself physically to the point of injury even though I am masochistic but, in the past I have self-punished for not standing up to bullies and people who have tried to exercise authority over me in different situations and sometimes just out of frustration and intense anger at myself for being so messed up or self hatred.
I have thought this over a lot and come to the conclusion that this may be the state of mind or alter that I refer to as "DH" who is very abusive in my mind anyway and he has, in the past even threatened to cut me if I do or don't do things that piss him off. Thankfully it has never gone beyond me or him, whichever one of us it is,

Possible trigger:

punching ourselves in the jaw, shredding our forearm skin with thorns from briers or cutting a shallow would with a dull shard of glass

after an argument with a family member.
What I want to know is has anyone else here cut out of pure frustration or self punishment?

I am so sorry that you are being bully. I had some experience in that to.