[roxyskater]

Hi Friends,

I was manic for a week and up for 4 days and runnign arouns with so much energy I didnt have time to cut, didnt even think about it but my doctor immediately change my medicine when I got manic that I crashed into depression and started cutting again. I was doing good for awhile but with the depression and my house being in chaos because of this move we have to make I am trying to gain some control, because I have no control over how I feel, that up to the meds, and I have no control over moving or the mess in my house and everything out of place, and the idea of being alone in a new house scares me to death I dont know how Im going to get through it without more cutting. How long will it take to not be afraid? to feel like I do here? At least when I manic I think happy thoughts, I dont feel this sadness that Im feeling now, the coming down is the worse. I hate everything out of place, I hate CHANGE I never new I would react so strongly to a change in my life. I know the depression is a matter of waiting for the meds to work, it just feels like forever. Thanks to all of you for listening to me complain, its just life is in an uproar right now and I keep trying to pretend it is not happening.

Sincerely,

Roxy

[Puffyprue]

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[Christina86]

Waiting for the meds to work is the hardest part...