I want to give in...

I'm just tired of everything going wrong. I know it's my illness talking but I'm still sick of it.

(((((((((((((Ryan)))))))))))))))

You know that you've been there for me when I've been having the urges. I want to be there for you too. Though all I can offer is to read the forum sticky about distractions, and if you want, you can PM/IM me. I wish you luck. I'll be thinking of you.

I know (((((silver))))). I'm posting right now and I hope that works until my meds make me sleepy. You're such a sweetheart.

Ry

Try to hang in there {{{{{{{{{Ryan}}}}}}}}}}}. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help.

Ry. It's a new day and I know you're not doing well. Do you still have the urges sweetie? You know I'm always here for you. Keep talking with me in PM. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

(((((((((((((((((((( Ry ))))))))))))))))))

well, I didn't do it. but today is turning out to be harder than yesterday. I think if I can get through the rest of the day I'll be fine. That's what I always tell myself. Then if "day"becomes too long, it goes to "hour" and so on and so forth Thanks silver and Wendy for the help.

Ry

Sweet ((((((((((Angel)))))))))) I know you're here for me and I'm gonna try to stick with you in the PM's. Just bare with me and try not to go too fast cause I'm pretty down right now. Thanks a million sweetie.

Ry

Just stay with me Ry, actually your PMs are coming faster than I'm replying but keep talking. I want to help you in whatever way I can. You have so much hurt right now. I hate to see you going through so much.

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(((((((((((((Ryan)))))))))))))))

It's great that you got through the night unmarked. Hope you can get through today as well. You've got a good attitude there.

13 minutes left and I've got another hour under my belt

Take care Ryan. Hope it is going better now.

(((((Ryan)))))

Hope you manage to make the day..sorry i dont have many words right now. only hugs. take care.

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I am here for you.

Take care,
Leslie

Ry, you'll make it sweetie. Remember you have people around you who are there to help you with this. I hope you are enjoying your evening tonight and that it helps distract you from your problems if even for a very short time. Just give me a shout out when you need me again. I'm always here for you, my bestest bud. Love you!!!

(((((((((((((((((( Ry ))))))))))))))))))

Ryan, i am on my bed with three frisky dogs who are really not liking that I am trying to type. You are doing so well to resist, keep doing it. What helps me is thinking about how it feels the next day when you can see or feel what you have done. For me it's guilt and shame. Hold on there okay? Let me know what I can do.

WW, AG, jet, Leslie, silver, wendy... you guys are doing just what I need... encouraging me. I don't wanna let myself down nor do I want to let you guys down. I made it through another night without SI. I WANT it but I don't NEED it. What I do NEED is you guys. Yall have been better friends to me in such a short period of time than most I've known for years and I'd do anything for you guys.

Ry

Ry, I'm glad that I was able to help you last night. You could never let me down. All I ask is for you to do your best to get through your pain. I know that you are. I'm glad last night went well for you in the end. Just remember, one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time!!! I'm always here for you sweetie. Love you!!!

BTW, got your PM but can't reply. Is yours turned off now?

(((((((((((((((((((( Ry ))))))))))))))))))

It takes baby steps to move forward and we're here to catch you should you get overwhelmed
Love
Angie

Again, AG, you're about the sweetest person. Thanks doll.

Ry

(((((((((((Angie)))))))))))

Thanks for the baby steps reminder. I forget that one sometimes and have to have it tossed my way. Thanks. Love ya.

Ry

BTW AG, I goofed and turned off pm's when I went invisible. They're back on now. Sorry.

Ry

So I found out. You send me the sweetest PM ever and then I can't reply you, then you send me a 2nd one and I still can't reply you. I didn't want you to think I was ignoring you and I was afraid you would. Glad you finally turned it on. GL at t today. Good timing for your appt. Hope it goes well. Catch up with you later and we can talk. Love you!!! Oh, and congrats on making it through the night without cutting. So very proud of you!!! I'm also glad that Jenn was able to give you comfort last night. So sweet of her.

(((((((((((((( Ry )))))))))))))))

So sorry sweetie, hope you're doing better now. I'm in the same place right now so all I can offer is my hugs...hope you'll accept..(((((((((((((Ryan)))))))))))))

Kayleigh

{{{{{{{{{Ry}}}}}}}}}}

Good job! Sounds like you had a good session today too, and that helps. Keep on hanging in there, and I'll keep checking back to see how you're doing.