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May 11, 2005 at 04:55 PM
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I quit therapy today. Almost cried on the way home, but found out I just couldn't. I wanted to. I wanted to bawl my eyes out and scream and cry but I just couldn't do it...now that I don't have to go to therapy and worry about her seeing any cuts or scars, I'm free to go. I imagined it on the way home...how many, how deep, where, when. I know, it's sick and disgusting and if anyone ever told me the things I'm saying here I'd recommend them to years of therapy and pills. But that's my scared ignorance. I sabotaged my recovery by never allowing it a chance to happen. Now I can continue in my self destruction until there's nothing left to destruct.
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Elder
Member Since Mar 2004
Location: Running on the wheel
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May 11, 2005 at 05:11 PM
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((((((((((((( yes )))))))))))))))
Just because you have quit therapy and now you're free to cut doesn't mean you have to. You can still change your mind. There are days when I decide I am going to cut and get the blades out, even run them against my skin, but I try not to cut for myself... not for somebody else. Just trying not to cut is a form of therapy, in my opinion. I haven't made a single cut in 3 months now  though it gets hard sometimes. But holding out for myself, rather than for somebody else, I find more useful than trying not to cut for somebody else.
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Magnate
Member Since Oct 2003
Location: Chicago
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May 11, 2005 at 09:08 PM
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{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{yesitsme}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Not going to therapy doesn't mean you have to give in. It's an excuse, I think, but not a reason to do it. I know it will be and is hard, but try. Write, post, call someone. You can manage--it is possible. It will take extra effort, but eventually you will be able to quit forever. I believe in you!
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