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#1
Feb 28, 2010, 10:10 PM
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I can't do it anymore, I can't give up my addiction. I love it so much, I'd protect it, it's the only thing I know. I want to give up. I want numbness. I want to feel like I'm someone, important yet it never happens. I'm a worthless piece of ---- just like my parents tell me I am. I can't wait to leave in a couple of days and go home. I want them dead, I want them to feel the way I feel. I want them to know my pain. I want to SI so badly. I can't take it anymore. I've resorted to keeping razor blades in my wallet and hidden in each room of my parents' house. I need to feel okay, to see blood, nothing else will do. I need it. I can't take it, I'm giving in to my deepest urges. I'm so powerless, unable to stop myself. I can't take it.
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#2
Feb 28, 2010, 10:50 PM
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Try to relax moon. God I know its hard to. You are someone and you not a piece of ----. I'm here for you. Like I said before I know that I don't know a lot about this. And I know I do this myself but all we can do is be here for you. You are a good person! You have talked to me when I needed someone to talk to. And I feel the same with my husband. But we can't let them win by letting them see that they are hurting you. I'm thinking about you hun. And I'm here for you!
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#3
Feb 28, 2010, 11:05 PM
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you are a valuable person, don't let them win. you are better than them.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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#4
Mar 01, 2010, 07:54 AM
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Moon, you are in a tough situation. It would be hard for anyone in your situation. I can't wait until you leave there either.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#5
Mar 01, 2010, 06:50 PM
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((((((((((( moonsapocalypse ))))))))))))
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#6
Mar 02, 2010, 12:57 AM
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I want to give in again...
 I leave tomorrow to head home but I can't stand one last night in this place. I need relief. Last edited by KeepHoldingOn; Mar 02, 2010 at 01:14 AM. |
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#7
Mar 02, 2010, 01:26 AM
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I hope you haven't given in again. Try to distarct yourself. That's what I've been doiong pretty much all night going through a lot of posts and the games on here. And hopefully it will get better once you are able to leave.
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#8
Mar 02, 2010, 01:34 AM
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i know how you feel here. its really hard to not give into SI. my mom found razors in my room & took them away. she means well, but she doesnt understand why i do it. i still do it sometimes but now i do things like write stories or listen to music to distract myself. anotherthing i do is make sure im not alone a lot cause then its harder to resist SI. i hope you feel better. i really know what this situation is like. also, try to resist SI as often as you can & maybe you will feel a little less dependant on it. thats what i try to do. and you need to keep a positve self image & ignore other, or at least try..i know its hard.
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#9
Mar 02, 2010, 12:38 PM
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#10
Mar 02, 2010, 12:45 PM
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Moon,
I'm sorry you're in such a bad place. I'm sorry it's so hard to fight. I'm sorry that SI feels like the only way. But I think you know that what you get from SI doesn't last. It isn't enough. You deserve better than this. I hope you find a better way to cope. (((((((((moonsapocalypse))))))) |
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#11
Mar 02, 2010, 03:30 PM
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Man, this just is not a good time for you. By now I hope that you are away from your parents. That way you can start to heal. Please keep us updated.
I'm sorry I can't take the pain away, I wish I could. I just hope like thine said, that you find a better way to cope, but it will be hard. I hope you can find things to take your mind of everything, and go into another world. At least that's what is helping me. All I can say is just keep trying. Things will get better. |
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#12
Mar 07, 2010, 10:28 PM
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I'm home but can't stop thinking about what happened when I was there. Things my dad said to me replay in my head, and when I close my eyes I can see my dad hurting me. I can't take his abuse, I can't take it. I don't know how to stop it. I Want to put an end to it but can't seem to find the strength or courage to do so.
The urge to cut should be there but isn't. In its place is the need to drink again, to pop pills, to end it all. |
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#13
Mar 07, 2010, 10:43 PM
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I wish things were going better for you moon. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. I'm here for you though. Anytime!
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#14
Mar 08, 2010, 01:41 PM
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Moon, you can't change your dad. Only he can do that. But you can limit your exposure to him. Your dad sounds messed up. What he does doesn't say anything about you. What he does only speaks about him and what kind of a person he is.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Mar 08, 2010, 02:46 PM
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I'd like to refer you to my signature, it may just help at this point in time. If you need anything PM me and I'll see what I can do. Good luck Liz!
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#16
Mar 13, 2010, 02:53 PM
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I went a week without cutting, but drank the whole time. Every night I'd feel the need to do shots or drink till I couldn't anymore and passed out.
I went a week without cutting, until today, I cracked. I don't really know what finally did it for me but once I felt that urge it didn't take me long to realize that I needed to do something about it. |
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#17
Mar 13, 2010, 03:55 PM
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Moon, when is your next therapy appt.?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#18
Mar 13, 2010, 05:39 PM
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I don't know if I'll have another...
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Mar 13, 2010, 06:02 PM
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WHy not?...
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#20
Mar 13, 2010, 06:44 PM
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I don't know, I just don't want to. I'm scared to go back.
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Mar 13, 2010, 08:16 PM
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I'm glad you were able to go a week but I'm sorry you slipped. It happens hun. If you need anything I'm here for you! Hugs!
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#22
Mar 13, 2010, 08:22 PM
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What are you afraid of?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#23
Mar 14, 2010, 05:57 PM
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The only thing that got me through that week was knowing that I could drink and feel better that way instead of causing physical pain. It's not much of an exchange though. When I'm not drinking I'm SIing.
Thanks babe! I don't exactly know what it is I'm afraid of. I don't know, I just feel strongly against going back there. |
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#24
Mar 14, 2010, 08:44 PM
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I know how you feel, i too feel as if im breaking down and want to SI so bad, how can i sop my self...iv'e been S.F for about 6mths but now everythings going wrong. i'm fighting it
, but am just crying with the pain. Ive been so well and now this. triggers cant think of any but my brain is so muddled, cn anyone help?roxyanne1
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#25
Mar 15, 2010, 10:03 AM
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Moon, therapy is imperative for getting better! Do you not want to talk about your trip to your parents?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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