[weird artist]

Before you read on this post contains references to SI/SH, so if you are feeling vulnerable please avoid it for now.

Hi I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety and now depersonalisation. My therapist says it is nothing to be worried about, and I should just observe the situations it occurs in and keep talking to her about them. But recently I experienced something quite different and instead of just being sat 'out back' watching, I wasn't there at all, and the next thing I knew I had self harmed. I don't self harm anymore, I'm past it, and I'm sure I wouldn't have done it, but I was almost aware of it, but I couldn't control anything. I'm really worried about how this will develop, I have to wait til Thursday to see my therapist, but I am going to talk it through with her. I'm just really scared its getting worse. My partner would get very angry if he knew I had self harmed again, I haven't done it since I promised him I would stop. I feel really guilty but I wasn't in control, and I don't know how to explain it to him Any ideas?
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[Sannah]

Starting therapy can stir things up and you can feel worse while you are getting better at first. There is no other way to get better than to talk about your issues in therapy, though. I'm glad that you are going to talk to your T about this.

How are you doing, weird artist?