Giving In

God, the urge to cut is so bad right now. I want to scream, to smash everything I see, to destroy everything I see! I can just feel the cold steel of the razor. The blood flowing from my wrists...so beautiful...

Im feeling the same way at the moment lexicon, but i havent got the energy to do. Id love to see some blood flowing tho. Hey i got an idea on how to not give into the temptation >> imagine your wrist, or arm or wherever you cut is not yours but belongs to a loved one....could you do it?

Scream at me if its a stupid idea lol

I think I could at this point if it were my sister's arm! I don't mean to sound crude or uncaring, but she's been very mean to me lately....

You can be as crude and uncaring as you like! I wont be judging you.. how has she been mean to you?

Hi!

How long have you been cutting yourself? Does anyone else in your family do it, as well?

I'm really curious about SI. I know next to nothing about it. I am trying to understand it!!



~Dottie

I first did it five years ago following a bad day. I had been put on seroxat to treat the depression i was going through and was scaring myself to death from my suicidal feelings. I now know that those feelings were probably a temporary side effect of the medication i was on, which puts you into a state of emotional turmoil in the first few months! Funny that being an antidepressant but there you go.

That was it till february of this year, and now i cant stop thinking about it! Im not going to try to summarise everything thats been said in this forum, because the reasons people do it are quite diverse, and i would make a bad job of it, but this is a good place to sit and read some of SIers experiences. I hope you learn something from it.

I've been a cutter for the last 15 years. Cutting on and off throughout those years.I'm still a cutter to this day, but holding out gets harder and harder every day.

sorry your sister has been mean
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