[Idontknowtheanswer]

I know I have issues. I am 39 years old, and I feel like a complete idiot for cutting, but I still do. I am so tired of pretending that everything's ok when it isn't. Sometimes I just wish I were dead. It would be easier. I am trying to start a new relationship, and every time something doesn't go the way I think it should, I lose it and start cutting. I just want to know that I'm not a complete psycho. I hate that I feel this way.

[phoenix7]

if youre a psycho then so am i .... and youre not ok

you are a person under stress that is using an innapropriate coping method - and you need to find ones that are less self harming to cope
that is what i am doing - and there are lots - have a lok at the stickies at the top of the forum - there are ideas there

but generally i have to keep my hands busy or my mind and hands busy to stop it

how are you doing?

do you know what your triggers are?

if you can identify them then thats a start.

P7