[moonlight]

Forgive me for posting this here--I thought since it had to do with BPD that I should just post it here better than any place.

Just feeling so disconnected from my life and every one in it--I think it is pretty sad. My best friend and I went out to lunch on Sunday. (this was after she kind of blew me off to study on Friday and Saturday). We had a great conversation, but I just felt kind of out of it and insecure--and it was weird cause this is one of the people in my life that I am supposed to trust completly. She even said "I'm sure we'll know each other forever" and I just thought to myself--that would be nice but it is just so unrealistic--I mean maybe we'll be exchanging Christmas cards in 30 years, but will we really be friends? I don't know I felt so disconnected and not like a real friend at all-- No man is an island--but I feel like I am on one drifting further and further out to sea


Ok second part of the post:

Have you guys all read the book "Girl Interupted" by Susanna Kaysen? I mean not seen the movie but read the book it is really fabulous. I read it maybe four times this summer just to feel as though I wasn't alone. Just wondering if any body had some comments on it.

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[cryingchild]

I have read it and its fantasitic Im a big fan of girl interrupted ,I can just so relate to suzzana sorry cant spell, My parents watched the film for the first time last night we were all in tears ...anyways The book is better then the film I agree :-)

[Zenobia]

I am wondering if the disconnected feeling is a protection response to her blowing you off the previous 2 days. You know kinda a dissociation sort of thing to protect you from the intense feelings of loss that sometimes occur when someone is not able to be there when you want them too. I get these feelings all the time toward my husband when I feel like he has abandoned me even though he is just going out for the night with friends or going to a game. I know that it is perfectly all right for him to do these things, in fact I encourage him to do them but I still get that sense of loss. Does that make any sense?

I saw the movie right before I jumped off the perverbial cliff. I read the book after I was diagnosed. The book was much better. But isn't that usually the case? I enjoy finding all the changes they make in the movie and contemplate why it is that they felt they needed to stray from the story. Just one of my little amusements. I have been having Jolly fun with the whole Lord of the Rings trilogy.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson

[cryingchild]

I am wondering if the disconnected feeling is a protection response to her blowing you off the previous 2 days have I missed something here ,who has blow who off?
soz.......

[heidu]

Moon's post was a two parter and I believe the blowing off thing referred to the first part of the post about her friend.

Hugs CC!!
Heidu

The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin

[cryingchild]

thanks for clearing that up for me I understand now :-)