[blackdragon]

Well i cut today. Seeing my cousin the way she is, is horrible. She has been having trouble with BOTH familys. My grandpa blew up at my grandma and ordered beth to take her bf home. Control issue. My grandma was so upset and i didnt carry myt cell phone so they had no way of getting ahold of me. But beth returned to the hell hole we are forced to live in. She is fearful of getting fired from her job, and being a single monther. I dont blame her. I mean she was crying to her aunt and saying she does not even want the kid anymore because all this trouble is too much. Everyone is telling her what to do and she is pist about that. She does not want to leach off my gma cause she is not like that. She has come so far. She wants to be with the father of her baby and my gpa does not see it that way. And her bf is nice. I mean sweetest boy u can imagine. My grandma says its her fault she should of known. I dont beleive that. Its grandpas fault. Being a stuck up controlling time bomb. The way he acts u cant tell if he is in this world or not. He spends his whole life watching that damn TV. She didnt think he fling the chair back dishes on the floor and screaming. No who can predict that. I have no respect for him anymore. He has never liked the girl grand kids. Only the boys. But he does not like beth nor me. I know that cause he has a aura that is dim and dark around us but when my cousin jo comes his aura brightens. I cut myself cause the tension in the house is so sufficating. Its a mixture of anger, sadness, and stress. This energy is just getting to me, i am not well enough spiritually to handle this energy. But i cut anyway. I feel stupid for doing so, because this is not my problem, but when the energy changes i cant handle it, and specially if the energy turns negative.

Sorry for ranting but i needed to vent and i felt this was the appropriate room. if its not feel free to move it.

awwwwww sounds like allot of tension at home. Does that make you feel upset? sad? worried? I feel that way when things are out of control. Its really hard. *hugs for you* Please take care of yourself.

[Lexicon78]

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