I just found out that my mom isn't coming to see me for thanksgiving. I have no friends at school yet. I purposely didn't cut so I wouldnt have any wounds while she was here. Should i sabotoge that ? no of course not its stupid.. but i so want to. I'm so sad and feeling alone.

[Lexicon78]

I can really relate to wanting to hold off on the cutting for the holidays just in case your relatives may see. I don't have my mom anymore to spend the holidays with, and it really hurts to be away from the ones you love during the holidays. Just hang in there. You've been there for me so many times and I'm there for you now.

Take care and stay safe.

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((esthersvirtue))))))))))) I am so sorry you are alone for the holidays. I remember how lonely I felt the first holidays I spent by myself. I can understand your desire to cut with all the emotions you are trying to deal with. I wish I could wisk you home so you could spend it with your family. As a poor substitute I will be on here on and off tomorrow and would love to hear from you. You have a sympathetic ear here. Please try and be safe.

Thanks you all so much. You were just what i needed to hear. I didn't say but the reason my mom didnt come is b/c her in laws showed up. My dad invited them just so my mom couldnt see me. My dad and I had a fight last weekend. I hate not having the family that I want to have. Reality sets in i guess. I have purged so much in the last few days that my stomach aches. Everything in me is trying to escape reality.

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((esthersvirtue))))))))))))))) I hope your weekend is going better than you feared. Remember we are here to talk should you wish to. Happy Thanksgiving Weekend. I am so glad you did not cut and hope you find a less destructive coping mechanism for the rest of the weekend. I know it is hard but you are doing well. Please try and be kind to yourself as you deserve it. Be safe. I am here should you want to talk.