[findingmy_self95]

So I finally told my parent I got fired. M mom was pissed at the people and interrogated me but finally let it go when she realised how upset it made me. I didnt expect that form my mom. She even called the owner to find out what happened.

My dad didnt interrogat me but yelled at me told me to start handing out more resumes and grow up. I did not expect that whatsoever from my dad. He was like how do you think i felt when I got laid off. I was like so you know eactly how Im feeling and you treat me like this and that he's a hypocrite. He said its no big deal grow up and get my *** into gear.

All of this makes me want to cut again. The way my dad treated me.... oh god. I expected the silent dissapointment which is what usually happens. Today he yelled at me and it hurt as much as getting fired did....

All I do is wanna cut again but Im getting drunk tonight so I can drown the pain which alcohol.

I need love and support right now.

[oudeis]

You're not alone, Brennan. It wasn't your fault you lost your job, it's not like you decided one day, 'hey, I wanna get fired!'. Your parent's lack of understanding is hurtful, and your father's hypocrisy even more so. I am so, so sorry your parents weren't supportive on you losing your job, especially since from what I've gathered, your father lost his job as well.

I know what it's like to have your parents (father in particular) overreact and be overly disappointed or angry about something that he shouldn't be, and have high expectations. Please don't get drunk tonight, it's destructive behavior, just as much as cutting is. If you want, you can PM me, I'm here for you <3