[sugahorse1]

Does anyone else do this from time to time? Not enough to want to commit Sui, but because you feel this is something you have control over?
That makes no sense. But effectively I mean-taking more tabs than you were prescribed

[Set Me Free]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

Does anyone else do this from time to time? Not enough to want to commit Sui, but because you feel this is something you have control over?
That makes no sense. But effectively I mean-taking more tabs than you were prescribed

At one I SI all the time and very seriously. I no longer cut, stab, burn I don't remember really how I stopped doing that. One of those things that you just notice, "hey, I'm not doing that..." But I still engage in what you have described sometimes and I will tell you it is not a good idea. Hospitalized several times due to accidental overdose or med interaction.

[sugahorse1]

I did land myself in hospital the first time. The next 2 times I was just VERY sick. When I ended up telling my T, she wanted me to go to hospital, but I didn't.
I know it is dangerous, and I know I really shouldn't, but some days I feel so helpless, that it seems the only option. I don't know what 'the only option' refers to though.

[agma]

I do this occasionally as a form of SI. I started this because it is a way I can hurt myself without leaving a visible mark for my husband to see. I know it isn't the best, but I just can't help it sometimes.

Yes I do this for both reasons mentioned. to stop feeling for a while and sometimes to sui.

[eskielover]

When I was doing it....it was not just about SI....it was meant as more than that. Think even my first time dealing with anorexia I ended up pushing it more because there was less stigma if I were to die from that then an OD. Since none of the OD's were successful, they sort of turned out to be like SI.....I just wanted the pain to go away that I was feeling....but just ended up feeling worse.

Strange because growing up, I could never swallow pills....would choke on a baby asprin......then I ended up OD'ing on pills for about 5 years.....& now I can't get a pill down my throat again...like when I was a kid. I know there wasn't much thought put into my OD's....it would just be a reaction to how I was feeling at the moment....which seems similar to SI.....so I can understand how this is what you are doing.

It's definitely NOT healthy. Don't know if some of those OD's are what caused my continuous migraines I am still have that just won't go away....maybe I really screwed up something in my brain. I know the time I ended up in ICU on a ventalator, definitely wasn't a good thing. I don't know how I survived some of the OD's I did....it could have only been God that kept me from dying. One never knows how the meds are going to interact in our body...one time can be different than another & it's really not worth taking the chance if you are doing it to SI....it's more like playing Russian Roulette.

[sugahorse1]

Sure - it is russian Roulette. I actually don't think it is possible to put anything into words to explain why one does it.
I have never SI'd by cutting, burning... So I technically don't have anything to hide from my family.
Some days I guess I have hoped I would OD. But it's been a good few months. Only on Monday did I consider it again... But not now anymore