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Default Nov 15, 2011 at 10:45 PM
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My T asked me to day what I am thinking when I want to cut. But I really couldn't tell her. So my T wants me to focus on that when the feelings come up and when they aren't the most intense and I can't think. So that is my homework. I will try to figure it out and post my thinking here.
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Default Nov 15, 2011 at 11:41 PM
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It is very hard, but not impossible. You can do this.
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Default Nov 16, 2011 at 05:07 PM
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Insight #1. When I am feeling worthless and want to make that feeling go away or want to have something else to focus on. The physical pain would be easier to deal with than the emotional pain. Also it is a physical urge like an itch that needs to be released.
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Keep going... the insights will come
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Default Nov 16, 2011 at 11:52 PM
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Insight #2: When my anxiety gets so high and I can't stand the anxiety. To bring relief.
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Default Nov 17, 2011 at 12:39 AM
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I used to do it when I hated myself so much, I couldn't stand it anymore. I had to try and destroy myself.

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Default Nov 17, 2011 at 10:31 AM
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Good work googley..........

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Default Nov 19, 2011 at 06:47 AM
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Good insights Googley! I think this is a good exercise your T is having you do, keep us posted?
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Default Nov 19, 2011 at 08:06 AM
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I'm on the same page as Laura. Though, I don't cut, I get mad, feel defeated and it's like I just loath/hate the situation/myself.
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Default Nov 22, 2011 at 09:29 PM
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I have urges to cut when I dissociate. Or that is the only time I've actually gone through with it.

I cut when I want to get rid of bad feelings. When I feel dirty or shameful.
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Default Nov 22, 2011 at 10:35 PM
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Sometimes I feel guilty about things (no I'm not going to share so you don't need to ask).

Sometimes I feel like the physical pain would be easier to tolerate than the emotional pain. At least then I have something to show for the pain.

Sometimes I want to cut all the yucky stuff out of me.

Sometimes I want to cut myself to ribbons.

Sometimes I want relief from the pressure. The pressure of feeling disgusting.
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Sometimes I feel guilty about things (no I'm not going to share so you don't need to ask).

Sometimes I feel like the physical pain would be easier to tolerate than the emotional pain. At least then I have something to show for the pain.

Sometimes I want to cut all the yucky stuff out of me.

Sometimes I want to cut myself to ribbons.

Sometimes I want relief from the pressure. The pressure of feeling disgusting.
I can relate to these reasons. I cut for pretty much the same reasons
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Default Nov 22, 2011 at 11:02 PM
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thats a good list googley. you put alot of thought into it.


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Default Nov 25, 2011 at 08:49 PM
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I want to cut when I am feeling depressed or lonely. To make the feeling go away.
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Default Nov 27, 2011 at 10:36 PM
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I cut when I don't want to do something worse.

I cut because I feel like I deserve to be hurt. And if I can do it first then I know when it is coming instead of waiting. And that I deserve it.
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