[Katix3]

Okay So I haven't been on PC for the longest! I do need to talk to someone because I'm affecting my family. I think I may have anger issues. It's really hard to think about but..I think it's the truth. I threw a temper tantrum one day...Which consisted of stomping for 20 min then tore apart my mom's bed..Since it's the only one we have anyways. I screamed cried ..I was so frustrated! Why did you get so angry you ask?.. Okay so 3 or 2 weeks b4 I got my stuff taken away as a punishment. (Phone,Computer ect..) Because of my "Attitude" Like seriously...GTFO -.- But whatever. I was so pissed bc I didnt have anything and it was getting to me. My mom's fiancee just moved in with us this Jan. He is more strict than my mom is and being an only child to a single mother for 13yrs.. I have always been used to getting my way ALWAYS! Now he comes and ****s everything up...! They made my punishment longer -.- for the tantrum. <--(Understood) I'm STILL on punishment! It's been 1 month! To be honest I just hate them and I honestly hope they die or something bc they get on my nerves.. I'm not saying it out of anger I'm being 100% honest with you all right now. My mom has done NOTHING but **** my life up and annoy me. I get stuck home watching my baby brother who I DIDN'T GIVE BIRTH TO! who cries every freakin' minute. It's stressful. Then she starts telling me that I'm acting "rebellious"... -_- SERIOUSLY ?!? Go away. I didn't cut for 3m and then I was just thinking about how much **** I go through and I get nothing. If there was a God I wouldn't be going through this crap hence why I dont want to go. She is making the family go next Sunday -__- I will not enjoy any of it. I'm not saying I'm an Atheist or anything I believe in God. But right now I'm upset at him. He's not helping me therefore I will continue to be myself and not go to church. I honestly sometimes just wanna drink a whole bottle of liquor and then for the moment forget about this crap I go through. The last time I cut ... I cut with a paperclip since I lost the FLIPPIN' Razor -.- (I can't begin to tell u how much I wanted to cry) I cut pretty deep...deep like I've never cut this bad. My scars that I have from the last one are darker ...saying I bled more. There is one that is VERY visible but I just tell my friends or whoever asks that I scratched my arm on a nail or something...My BFF's here so I'm gonna go.

Hi Katix3
I wish I had the answer or the words that would help. I understand your anger and frustration very well.Been there....
Try, just try, NOT to hurt yourself. You are the one hurting, so why should you punish yourself further?
I'm here if you need to talk.

[Sannah]

Hi Katix, I remember you. Change is stressful (mom's fiance moving in). I'm really sorry that you are in distress. How old is your brother now? Can you calmly talk to your mom about the things that are making you angry?

[Katix3]

Every time I talk to my mom..it gets out of control and I get the same response when I tell her about my feelings. -.- I usally just write in my diary which kinda helps... for the moment :/ I could never talk to my mom unless it's about anything besides my emotions. I dont want to do something that will make me feel more upset ya know? My Brother is 10mo... He'll be 1 in May (More excited than him) lol