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#1
Apr 07, 2012, 12:16 PM
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Does anyone self harm to punish themselves or feel like they need to self harm because they feel they need to be punished for something they did wrong or feel they did wrong?
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#2
Apr 07, 2012, 12:49 PM
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When I cut it's because the pain has exceeded my ability to handle it and I need to do something, anything, to distract me from how much I'm hurting. I've heard it described as using a pain you can control to try to balance pain you can't control. Don't know if that's right, but I saw it somewhere and it kinda makes sense.
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#3
Apr 07, 2012, 01:26 PM
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Darkmood that was the reason why I started. Later it moved into what bowhunt72 described. I can't remember the turning point though, it's all very blurry now.
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Apr 07, 2012, 01:59 PM
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That's exactly why I cut.
When I got in trouble as a teen, the shrinks kept asking why why why? They tried to explain reasons why for me. Do you do it because you can't feel anything? Do you do it because you feel to much? And I just stared. I didn't know. I did it to punish myself because I'm a vile person. I don't really feel better from cutting, I feel better from punishing myself, like now I can be less bad for a while.
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Apr 07, 2012, 02:05 PM
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I need to rethink my answer. I think the reason I'm losing control now, besides the depression and loss of losing a lover I truly thought I was destined to spend my life with, is the massive guilt of realizing what I did to my wife and kids by being with her. I can't forgive myself and it's tearing me apart. Maybe that's the reason I want to cut so bad now.
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#6
Apr 07, 2012, 04:11 PM
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Yes I self-harm as a form of punishment for making mistakes and failure, although, like what ba.ll.oo.n said, it evolved into a method of coping with intense feelings as well.
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#7
Apr 07, 2012, 08:08 PM
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I cut myself for several reasons. One of them is because I punish myself because I am very guilty. I have done horrible things in this world and others.
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#8
Apr 07, 2012, 09:10 PM
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I SI for several different reasons and yes, one them is punishment. I don't know what the punishment is for, except that I am bad. It's very confusing.
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#9
Apr 08, 2012, 04:43 AM
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There is a myriad of reasons for my SI, basically anything and everything makes me want to. Even feeling happy at times, because I feel I don't deserve it and it won't last. I don't do it as punishment as much as I did when I was younger. Now it is more of something to push myself and to see what I can take and to bring me back down to reality.
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