[crimsontears1985]

Today was a pretty laid back day. I slept in for a change and that felt pretty good. Had a good day but feeling a little anxious.
Having slight urges but not really all that sure as to why. It’s not like I am going to act on my urges though because I know better and I’m using my coping skills.
Going to spend a little time in God’s word tonight before I go to bed since I haven’t been doing my daily devotionals. That usually makes me feel more at peace anyway. Doing this helps a lot too. Getting things out in the open has made a huge difference. I want to be honest so that I can catch things before I go into crisis mode or whatever. I don’t want to end up doing anything stupid as I have done enough damage in the past.
I’m excited though about all that is happening. God is really working in my life and doing a lot of healing. I have been seeing a lot of growth in me as well as in those around me. Life is good today. I have so much to be thankful for.
Almost out of cigarettes and I think that too has me a bit on edge but I really need to start cutting back on that as it is really starting to take a toll on my health.
I enjoy living where I am at as I get a lot of good support and what not. Thanks Adam! What a true friend! I’m grateful that God has given me so many true friends even the ones who are very blunt with me.
Today Adam and I started working on a song and that really was exciting and made me feel good too. I love music and writing. I am excited to see where all this is going to go and what God is going to do with it and what not. God is so good!
Well, not much else really going on right now. Going to try and start winding down so that I can get to bed soon. Tomorrow is going to be a big day and a busy day. Guess that is all for now…..