[nicoleb2]

I want to cut again, and I don't care where, i don't care if i leave scars. Nobody likes me anyway so what difference does it make. I am unstable, therefore unsuitable as a friend. I'm always going to be mentally ill... its never going to go away. I just want to cut and cut and cut.

[grey_aj]

Be safe, try not to hurt yourself.

[barney maximus]

i have been feeling like that all day. i have been looking around too scared to post anything so i think you are really brave! i hope you are keeping yourself safe. there is no way you are unsuitable as a friend

[Nemo39122]

Originally Posted by nicoleb2

I want to cut again, and I don't care where, i don't care if i leave scars.

I totally understand not caring if you cut, or not caring about the scars...but I still hope you can avoid those things.

Nobody likes me anyway so what difference does it make. I am unstable, therefore unsuitable as a friend.

People can be...well alot of things that would get
censored on here. But that's their problem, not a reflection on whether or not people as a whole like you or think you're suitable as a friend. I'm not going to say "oh people love you!!!" Even though that's true, I'm sure you've heard it enough. I do know people here like and care about you, including me, if that matters at all.

I'm always going to be mentally ill... its never going to go away.

That doesn't mean things automatically won't get better in the future...and that's still no reason for people to not be friends with you.

I just want to cut and cut and cut.

[SoupDragon]

I care what happens to you. Be kind to yourself. Soup

[nicoleb2]

Things just keep getting worse... former friend is being worse, still no call from pdoc's office, and now my son has to have a procedure that should really be no big deal, but worries me because of the need for general anesthesia

[Idiot17]

Cutting is so relieving. I totally agree. This past week i just cut everywhere i gave up caring about scars long ago. Just try and be carefull not to cause to much damage- though im not one to talk. Ppl do care. And who said ur not a suitable friend, never believe that, never. Gluck

[nicoleb2]

nasty urges again. STILL haven't heard from my pdoc. 3 weeks now since I called... I fcking quit!

[grey_aj]

Nicole, we care about what happens to you! Don't do anything that you'll regret later. The relief is temporary. The scars are permanent. Sounds cliche, but its very true.

[Idiot17]

Ajb- its not true
Gluck, nicoleb

[nicoleb2]

The urges are really bad tonight. I am fighting to keep myself from going to get a utility knife to cut right now

[nicoleb2]

Lost that fight... cut again.... t hasn't asked about it the last couple weeks, and I am NOT telling her about it.
I',m so tired of my life