[LostAngel0616]

"sooo GOOD! The cold metal against my skin... Between my fingers... the build up of every frustration and negitive feeling... Feel it well up in my gut... move through my heart and pick up more from there... move into my shoulders, down my arm, push itself into my finger tips... the push of the blade... into my burning skin... then the exstacy of release from my hot blood running out... I want it so f****** bad! I WANT TO RELEASE THIS MOTHER F****** PRESSURE! THIS GODD*** INTENSITY! I'M SO SICK OF IT COARSING THROUGH AND TAKING OVER MY VEINS! JUST GET IT THE F*** OUT! I WANT TO EXPLODE! IT WOULD GET RID OF ALL THIS! IT WOULD FEEL SO F****** GOOD! I'm shaking so f***** bad... I need a release. I don't want to die, I just want this intense negitivity out of my veins. why is that so horrible? Why can't people see THAT is the reason I use to cut? I just dont want this S*** IN MY BODY ANYMORE! It makes me feel like I can't do anything until its gone. JUST ONE VEIN! Thats all it takes. Just need to open (next post)