[LostAngel0616]

I got angry yesterday and started free writing in my journal; just writing everything that went through my head... : "Things just keep getting tougher and tougher. I'm really having a hard time containing myself. It's like I can't get anything right. Right now I just need something psychial to do. My heart is racing like crazy, all my muscles are tense... I feel like I could explode. And it would feel amazing. Absolutely INCREDIBLE. Its a good thing I quit cutting. Cause this would be the exact time I would be doing it. I would love to just slash my skin right now and get all this pressure out. This is why I hit ****. I wish I had my flag or something." (I use to be on color guard; the flag twillers in marching bands.) "I just have so much intensity inside me. I want it out so godd d*** bad! I'm so sick of holding all this in. I just need something psychial... I WANT THIS PRESSURE OUT! Its getting to the point where I don't give a s*** now. If I could just hide the slashes... It would feel (next post)