[tomboy2011]

my mom told me she is scared about my cutting and now my dad is geting upset becouse of my arm sleaves he dont know about the cutting i just want to hide in a big hole and just stay there he said that he wont go to a firework thing if i am wereing them so i am feeling realy depresed and hateing myself and i want to cut bad :'( what do i do i hate this i hate me

[Sannah]

Your mom is being honest? Why is this distressing? Your dad told you he won't go somewhere with you if you are wearing long sleeves?

[tomboy2011]

i just dont like making my mom worry and yes my dad wont go somewhere with me becouse of what i wear

[Sannah]

Your mom is supposed to worry. This could have been an opportunity for you to talk to your mom about her cooperating with your therapy?

[tomboy2011]

i rather keep my mom out of my T

[Ticli-Otops]

I'm sorry. But you can't be upset that your mom is worried. She's your mother, it's her job to be worried. And maybe you need to sit down with your dad and talk to him about him not going somewhere with you? Let him know that it upsets you, and he should be able to go somewhere with you, no matter what you're wearing. But, maybe your dad should know about your cutting, too? It might help him understand. Please be strong, and don't hurt yourself. Everything will be okay.

[tomboy2011]

i dont even see my dad anymore becouse of how many fights we had i dont want to see him anymore or talk to him no less just sit down with him and tell him about that cutting he will just get mad

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by tomboy2011

i rather keep my mom out of my T

This is a problem. Your mom is part of your problem. What does your T think about this?

[tomboy2011]

i told my mom triggers me when she asked about my cutting ans we havnt realy worked on

[Sannah]

Don't you think that if your mom is a major part of your problem that this is what should be worked on in T?

[tomboy2011]

my T and i been working on how to make me more comfaterable to come out of my room and how to deal with triggers

[optimize990h]

Originally Posted by tomboy2011

my T and i been working on how to make me more comfaterable to come out of my room and how to deal with triggers

I need work on keeping triggers away.too. i do not accept compliments well.I guess I bored to sleep about my bird. I hope 2 morrow/ today is better. That you r 2 urself.tc please

[tomboy2011]

lol i loves talking about your birds :P

[optimize990h]

tb, remember the female bird was the one who passed away. The one in the photo is the new bird, Buddy. He's the depressed bird.

[tomboy2011]

well we had the picnic and he saw some of my scars and my aunt asked me why i was wearin long sleaves i feel useless

[Sannah]

[ummokay]

I don't know if it's too late to reply, hopefully not.
First of all, don't feel useless. I've had that feeling too and I understand it, but it's dangerous. Those are the thoughts that make you get worse.
I have had issues with self injury, and although I fight those feelings and urges every day, I haven't physically done it in months. The reason why is because of my mother.
When she found out, she was disappointed and upset that I wouldn't talk to her about it. My dad didn't want me to get therapy because he didn't want to waste money if I wouldn't talk.
But because my mom got so worried, I couldn't do it anymore. I knew that she'd check and that I couldn't hide it. I know the issues with your mom might be disheartening, but it could help you in the long run. As much as I hated my mother, she made me stop.
As for your dad, he could act as another trigger. Because he offends you and argues with you, of course you'll feel worse about yourself. I'm not a therapist, but hopefully my advice will help, and you could even bring this up with your own therapist to discuss the option.
Leave your dad out of the equation for now. Your recovery is about you. The most tempting thing about cutting is that when you see the marks you want to make more, yea? Wait until they've started to heal and become scars instead of cuts. It will be less tempting to re-open them. When you've gotten to this point, then confront your dad. When you've lasted a day without cutting, you can last a year, and you'll be stronger talking to him.
Again, I don't know how my advice would work for you, but it has worked for me, and I've survived.
Feel better- No one deserves to hate themselves.