[puzzclar]

I started the day off as being calm, then wanting to SI to feel something again, and because I had opportunity. It was like I was being told to SI. I went to a dual diagnosis group, reported that I was doing just fine, and then worked out and got things done.

Then the unthinkable happens, the sad SUI thoughts returned.

I don't want the SUI thoughts, and SI may be the one thing to temporarily take them away. How many more days do I have to live with these thoughts? Why can't they just disappear? Like how they started....

Now for the first time I really do want to.... fill in maladaptive coping skill here.... But I just don't know what else to do, except VENT... and try and cope with sleep.... I hate it when these thoughts come right around midnight... then there is no one to really talk to. And it lowers my will to actually fight it, and that leads to looking..... AHHHHHHHHHH

[Oystersoul]

Hang in there! Take every minute as it comes

[Sannah]

I was wondering if you could just accept that you will cycle back to some down times after you have some good times? I think that this is how people get better. At first you feel bad all the time but as you work on things you have moments of feeling better and as you keep working the bad times get fewer and shorter and the good times get more frequent and longer. It is a gradual process.