[GirlOfManyFaces]

I thought I was in control of my cutting. I thought I was done with it. But I'm not. I don't want to live anymore. And every time I cut I just want to die even more.

I just don't know what to do. I've given up on life.

[smmath]

i don't really know what to say, but you need to talk to someone. if you feel like you are in danger call someone or a hot line but that's not super good advice. please don't give up on life, i along with everyone on this site and people in your life do NOT want you to do something deleterious to your physical or mental self. we should really talk... i'll send you a PM. please be safe.

--Sam

[Sannah]

Girl, you need to seek out help beyond your current T and parents. Can you go to the doctor and tell him or her what you are feeling and going through? How about telling the counselor at your school?

[stern]

I've passed through this mental state so I can understand that. I had told you that cutting makes everything even worse... What I guess is, you are an intelligent girl who has made great achievements. And you want to achieve too much in life but when circumstances get tough on you, you get so dishearten that you see no point in living, assuming that you can never make a difference. You CAN make a difference. I see great potential in you. But the fact is, nobody else can make you realize your worth unless you won't realize it by yourself. Just give one more chance to life from heart. Believe that you are good and you deserve good, you'll see the difference by yourself. Stay safe!

[Ultra Darkness]

Oh, Girl...

You come to me with
scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night
feelin' like this

I just came to say good bye
Didn't want you to see me cry
I'm fine

More song quotes, this time from Skillet's "The Last Night". Before anyone jumps to conclusions, the title comes from the line, "This is the last night you'll spend alone".
You're having a hard time. I just can't understand how your parents and therapist can be so blind. Interestingly, though, "The Last Night" goes into that too:

Your parents say
everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you
They don't know you at all

It's true. If they knew you, if they cared about you, they wouldn't do this to you.
Keep fighting. That may seem cold, but it's all I can think to say. There's a light in the darkness if you can just find it. That was the point of the first poem I ever posted on PC, and I stand by it.
Stay safe...

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by Sannah

Girl, you need to seek out help beyond your current T and parents. Can you go to the doctor and tell him or her what you are feeling and going through? How about telling the counselor at your school?

I don't have a school counselor. So that's a no