[ThisWayOut]

they are smacking themselves into my skull going mad with boredom and avoidance. i alternate between wanting to shred myself, and wanting to run away (and find something to shred myself with). yesterday's anxiety is manifesting as extreme restlessness and impulses to self injure... ugh... can't break.

[Travelinglady]

Please get in touch with one of your medical professionals. Okay? We don't want you to give in to this self-harm.

[ThisWayOut]

I already slipped up, but that's ok. It was just a little slip. On the way up now. Still struggling with really wanting to talk to someone, but getting it out in my blog and thus communicating a bit with my wife. Writing a ton, but don't know if anyone cares or it even makes sense. That's ok tho. The person that I need too see in is reading. That's what matters most.
Today is better. I'm still already struggling having been awake for less than an hour (normally mornings are my easy time), but I'm doing what I need to keep safe. I just wish I had more supports. I was reading about someone who went to aa to deal with their self injury addiction. If it wasn't so centered on a higherr power, that would be a viable option for me. I wish religion wasn't such a huge trigger for me. It sounds like a good support...