[sassyone]

Hi all,
I'm new here so please bear with me. i'm looking for resources i guess. I've got a history of sadistic prolonged sexual abuse, and the body memories i'm dealing with leave me feeling like i'm being raped all over again. the only way i can get these sensations to stop is through some form of self injury. But it seems all of the resources i've found deal only with the emotional aspects of self harm. Does anybody really get that it isn't always emotional, there are physical elements? I've been into every site i can find; read every book i can find on every connection between somatic memory / sexual abuse / self injury, and none of it seems to apply to me.
I am seeing a therapist. She's good, but some of this is new for her as well. Suggestions, anybody? Resources i might have missed?
Thanx!

[Rhapsody]

Check out the book that I listed in the Rate & Review section on here called: Feelings Buried Alive Never Die.... it was recomeended to me by my T (and) it has done wonders in helping ME to release my body memiores and pains.

The Radical Forgiveness Book that I listed in there is GREAT for this type of therapy as well..... I got the 13 Step CD with the book, and I use it on a weekly basis - if not daily some times.

Good Luck.... and please feel open to PM me with any questions you may have.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

[sassyone]

Thank You. I'll look for them. At this point i'd try almost anything.
Part of the problem is that so moch of my experience was so much more bizarre than most others i've heard & read about, i feel like i'm alone with it, different both from other survivors and other SI'ers. it's frustrating, but i'm hanging on, trying other things...

[Rhapsody]

I have a post saved on computer from a woman that I used to talk with on another forum and in the post she shares the worse years of her abuse (unspeakable acts done to her) and I often share it with others when they feel that there is no HOPE left for them.... if you would like for me to send it to you to read just let me know and I will, but please be warned that is extremely graphic and very disturbing to say the least.


LoVe,
Rhapsody - (((( hope awaits ))))

[sassyone]

Please do. At this point in my life there is nothing that shocks me and i can handle disturbing if it might help in the long run.
Thank you.

[Rhapsody]

OK - I will send it to you.... it will be in 8 diff pages.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Rhapsody]

I have sent the eight pages of her story...... after YOU read them please take note that she has stated that she is doing well and that her life is starting to get back on track with the right T and the support of her sister.

So................. there is HOPE for YOU!! (((( hugs ))))

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[sassyone]

Just finished reading it - made me cry - i don't do that often. Some of it sounded familiar. I'm sorry she had to go through all of that - but it does help to know i'm not alone with some of these... experiences?
i don't reach out often and this is all pretty new so i think i'll stop there for now.
Thanx again - your quick response helped a lot. i was worried about trying it out & still feeling alone. i don't.

[Rhapsody]

REST for now............. and I pray that you will feel SAFE enough to return and to let us all here on PC help YOU.... (((( hugs ))))

LoVe,
Rhapsody -