it allways hits the fan :( (trig)

why is it every time thang start to go ok it all gos to pot? I was doing ok I hade some wear to live I had my school and had stoped sh for a time but then a frind killed himself I lost my scholarship because I had to drop all my classis to take of a budy who got sick (and no I can not afort school with out it) then I lost my housing and all this combined has got me ingaging in self harm again. I know that self harm isn't going to help or make things better nut its like a security blankit for me it has allways ben there to make the pain stop and the bad things go away. so now I am siting here behind a mc donalds no wear to go hoping I can contuine paying for my phone service. im "dirty" and I can not sleep for fear that the cops will find me and send me to the psy hosp thinking I am just another of the indivutles that socilaty don't need I will not go throw that again! what r u supost to do one there is no wear to go and no one to turn to? what am I to do?

Some states have shelters you can go to. It is not fine living but it is a place to sleep at least. Do you have any family or friends willing to help you out?