[winkynjr]

I am sitting here really wanting to burn!!!! I am trying to make day 3 but right now I don't know...part of me wants to reach out but another part of me don't want anyone to stop me!!! I am the black sheep of my family and I am just really really hurt right now, but I don't allow myself to cry or feel so instead I hurt me and I really want to right this minute

[Sam2]

The fact that you posted your message says that there is a large part of you that doesn't want to SI. Going on three days without it is a very good start even if it seems small.

Let me ask you this. If one of your friends came to you and told you that they were feeling really bad and were burning or cutting themselves, would you try to get them to stop, or would you encourage the behavior? Think of yourself as that other person.

There are medications that can help you control the urge to SI. The important thing is to break the cycle and find a better way of coping. You sound like a sensitive person, and that is not a bad thing. I know how hard it is to stop, I did it for years and years and............

Whether you want to believe it or not, you are a valuable person, and you don't deserve to punish yourself for things you did not do. On a peice of paper, make two columns. One for things you like about yourself and one for things you don't like. Be honest in both comumns or it won't do any good. Start working on the things you don't like. Just one at a time, and they don't have to be in order.

Sam2

[winkynjr]

Thank you Sam2......I a actually gave in and cut instead of burning!!!!! I do not care for myself much at all and never really did!!!!!