[lotsofq]

TRIGGER FOR SI:
Don't know I I'm in the right section or not. T knows I cut sometimes when I can't handle things, but I can't get last these random extremely dangerous impulsive things that pop up. It like nothing else matters and I HAVE todo whatever it is and whatever it takes. I loose hours sometimes without en realizing it. Tonight's thing.... I want to stick needles in my arm and spin them around causing bruising. Probably nothing medically dangerous about that, but seriously.... It is a random urge! Of course, there is no place this time of night open to get needles. So.... Here I sit.

[ThisWayOut]

I'm sorry you are struggling with this. have you talked to your t more in-depth about this stuff?
I'm glad no place is open... hang in there.

[jadedbutterfly]

Glad you didn't give into that urge.
I struggle with impulses as well. The best way to stop myself is to distract by engaging my mind and my body in an activity. Doing some kind of art, get out of my apt..even if its just down the hallway, changing my environment for even 5 mins makes a huge difference. Those are the 2 that I have been using lately. There are countless ways to distract......
Sounds like you might be getting lost in the fantasizing about Si'ng. Maybe your T can help you learn some techniques that will help you pull yourself out of getting lost in it.