[ThisWayOut]

I si'd, then got some not-so-great news, and now the urges are really intense. I'm trying not to launch into catastrophic thinking, but my brain is finding it's way around all the road-blocks I put up. That leads to some pretty intense and overwhelming urges. I wish I was better at dealing, or I wish no one cared what I did...
I'm also trying to convince myself that the fact that this new therapist rescheduled to the following week does not mean she is trying to get out of seeing me. I know that's my own issues and fears popping up, and her being gone for a week on no notice is reflective of something in her life, and not my unworthiness as a client... it's not working so well atm tho, and... well... I'm falling...
so much for letting some healing happen... :/

[Moodswing]

We need to stop relying on these therapist. I swear they are doing more harm than good.

[ThisWayOut]

I miss my old t who was reliable and available and knew what she was talking about...

[ThisWayOut]

still struggling with the urges. they are strong again today. I really just want to get this all under control. I hate feeling like this. I hate struggling all the time. If I could just figure things out one way or the other, it would all be so much easier.

[Moodswing]

Originally Posted by MdngtRain

still struggling with the urges. they are strong again today. I really just want to get this all under control. I hate feeling like this. I hate struggling all the time. If I could just figure things out one way or the other, it would all be so much easier.

I just lost control...Binged/purged and now my husband is cooking dinner. Thank God he is clueless and has no idea of the extend of my Mental Health issues. I hide everything very well.

[ThisWayOut]

I wish I could help make things better for us both. Its just hard sometimes. (Hugs)