[depressedgirl]

I'm not ok. I feel worse than I have in a long time. I feel exhausted everyday. between work and school and fighting with my fiancee and not sleeping much I have been feeling drained and depressed and like im gonna snap at any moment. ssmokingthe only way I can keep from hurting myself. I just need a break. I need to have for just one day some normalness. a day where I don't feel like crying my eyes out and ending everything I've worked for. one day that I can feel loved and for once feel like I matter to someone. but that will never happen though, so I dont know why I even try. I guess what I'm trying to say is, there is nothing stopping me from cutting or hurting myself in other ways. I just know that not doing that is the one thread hanging on from me not snapping and spiraling out of control with it. I just don't know how much longer I can keep doing this.

[Fuzzybear]

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[depressedgirl]

what??? :/

[Grey Matter]

they are sending you love.

I am really quite ill today. So I can't give a proper reply right now. But I will reply in the morning. Please take care.

[depressedgirl]

it's ok. hope you feel better

[gayleggg]

Dear Depressedgirl, I hope by now you are feeling a little better. Unfortunately, we go through these spells that seem like they are never going to end. But eventually, we see a little light shine through. I think you really need to get some rest. You need to set aside agruing with fiancee and get some sleep. I hope he loves you enough to help you get some rest and let problems go for right until you can cope with them better. I know without sleep I spiral all over the place. Hope you feel better soon.
Gayle

[depressedgirl]

He won't do anything to help. He will just say or do something to make me feel worse.