[Unknown Shadow]

Since I started cutting a week ago (I've had urges for some years, but they managed to take control over me just a few days ago) I feel my BPD became relatively stable compared to past. But as soon I try to resist the urge I start to feel very anxious and I can sense depression coming back, I need to do at least one cut a day. So, I feel it's either SI or BPD. I don't want to go back to these uncontrollable mood swings and other horrors, but I also feel it's wrong to cut. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place here, and I don't know how to get out.

[kaliope]

cutting is very much an addiction. it releases the same feel good endorphins after the act is complete. don't judge yourself harshly by saying it is wrong, cutting is a coping skill, although unhealthy on at that. I hope that you have a therapist that you can talk to that can teach you healthy coping skills to help break this cycle that you have gotten yourself in. if not, please look into it. take care.