[HALLIEBETH87]

does this happen to anyone else?> you go through a day somewhat fine, occasional crying spell or whatever, but mostly fine. then that night, its like you morph into someone else completely.....i get really depressed-its like I've reached the end of the line or something. everything about me changes pretty much. i dont talk to anyone, i want desperately to be alone, if i do end up calling someone i dont talk much, if i do talk its very quiet and its like it takes great effort for me to express things. im not sure what goes on in my head, i just feel dead. so then i get the urge to cut and usually do. like last night, i cut and its like i instantly "feel" again. i know that feeling of relief happens to me in other instances too, but has anyone else experienced what I do at night?

[Rhapsody]

Oh - Boy do I ever.............. this happens with me a lot, but I think most of mine has to do the wear and tear of the day and also that everyone else is coming home for the night, therefore, I so many more problems and stress to tend with.

IMO - I think very few people like to be alone at night..... when it is dark.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[HALLIEBETH87]

i dont know why this happens to me-this is how i am usually feeling when i go and hide under the stairs in my dorm. wonder why this happens?

Sure do. when I get like this I take a bath with scented bubbles or bath oil. Sitting in a bubble bath (sometimes with a bathing suit on) and smelling and feeling the bubbles or the smoothness of bathoil helps in reconnecting with the five senses. Doesnt work every time but alot of the time when I am feeling numb in body and racing thoughts and emotions. hang in there

[behndblueyes]

I feel like this all of the time so you are not alone. A lo of nights I want nthing more then to be alone... but then I feel very lonely. It is like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. Sometimes writing helps... just all of the feelings that you are having... good and bad.

I hope you feel better very soon

xx

[nothing_inside]

This happens to me too, but in the morning. If I have too much empty time before work, it's very difficult to keep myself from having the racing thoughts and I ususally end up acting on them.

have you found any ways that work for you to divert your thoughts-like reading or watching tv or something like that?

[HALLIEBETH87]

well, it all depends if my roommate is in our room at the time. if she is not, i may watch a Disne movie (cheers me up) or do something creative (decorate my wall, burn a cd, make something, etc). but if she is here, i tend to hide under the stairs leading to the basement here in my dormitory-while there i might write in my journal...beleive it or not, its a great place to reflect and write. other than that, i find that sometimes taking a drive can help. if i am at home though, i walk to the playground down the road from my past....thats my favorite one. thanks for answering.