[Chippie]

Everyone around me has been fighting and so uptight, and somehow I just keep getting thrown back in the middle I try and keep out of the way but it's impossible. It's like they try to make me feel bad or see how hard they can push me till I break. I'm just about there too, it's too much for me, I have already taken everything sharp out of my room but no ones awake now, it's just too tempting to go down and grab something anything just to relieve this tension inside. I'm up for chatting for a while if anyone's here, I just need to keep my mind here and away from the blades.

Chippie - That's so great that you got the sharps out of the room. Very wise of you! And you got online and vented your frustrations safely! Excellent work!!!! It's so hard to stay safe, and it sounds like you did all the right things.

Have you been thinking about trying to get into therapy there? I think you said that the campus therapists don't have a good rep, but sometimes what doesn't work for one person works for another. AND, it would give you some practice talking about your SI. Just talking out loud to someone about it can help you face the reality of the situation.

Please keep staying safe. Emmy


"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion." -- The Dalai Lama