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Oct 13, 2013 at 09:16 PM
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Keep intentionally triggering myself for some reason.
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Oct 14, 2013 at 12:02 AM
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eh..... just eh.
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Oct 14, 2013 at 12:22 AM
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 's and my thoughts to everyone needing them at the moment. It seems like a rough time for a lot of people.Hang in there I promise that the urges will pass again and it will get easier.
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Oct 14, 2013 at 01:25 AM
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I got through this episode without SI'ing
 but I got a tattoo that doesn't count right?
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Oct 14, 2013 at 02:35 AM
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 And nah I don't think so
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Oct 14, 2013 at 04:41 AM
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oh my god.... i do a lot of that some days! especially on those days where i feel nothing at all... it's just nice to feel something- even if it's painful been doing a lot this morning- especially on my kneck (i have stuff their i've been working on for years) |
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Oct 14, 2013 at 04:48 AM
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Really struggling tonight and not even sure why to be honest
 It has been almost 6 months now that I've managed to resist but it's back and I really don't want to hold out any longer. I know I'm normally the positive one but I'm sick of being positive- what difference does it make? Who would know or care if I gave in now? 
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Oct 14, 2013 at 04:52 AM
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Oct 14, 2013 at 11:07 AM
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I understand the urges that come out of nowhere after stopping for a long time.
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Oct 14, 2013 at 11:17 AM
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I've managed not to do anything since I OD'ed, but it's always just a thought in the back of my head. Which is endlessly frustrating.
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Oct 15, 2013 at 02:59 AM
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i've all ready started...
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Oct 15, 2013 at 03:20 AM
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Urges today are strong from a lot of stress
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Oct 15, 2013 at 10:19 AM
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Not many urges lately. I'm very happy about it. T was very excited to hear about how i've been addressing the sui thoughts (a constant for me) and I really do feel like i've been making a lot of progress!
On another note, my mother saw one of my scars today and I had to come up with some dumb excuse to explain it (she only saw a glimpse, my excuse wouldn't have worked if she saw the whole thing). It was awkward, but it also, for me, was added encouragement to find healthier (or at least less visible) ways to handle my emotions. __________________ A majorly depressed, anxious and dependent, schizotypal hypomanic beautiful mess ...[just a rebel to the world with no place to go...  ]
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Oct 15, 2013 at 02:47 PM
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 my therapist "ordered" me to refrain from SI for 1/2 day on two occasions this week. Kinda freaked me out, having this limitation - without any real way of coping. Throughly enjoyed a session of SI once I got past 1pm today. |
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Oct 15, 2013 at 04:14 PM
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I haven't cut but I'm starving myself
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Oct 16, 2013 at 02:09 AM
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I felt numb and self loathing and stressed and just couldn't deal with anything. So I relapsed after about a week.
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Oct 16, 2013 at 04:41 AM
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lots of urges today.
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Oct 16, 2013 at 06:12 PM
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No urges today, just a little sad
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Oct 16, 2013 at 06:48 PM
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Urges today like crazy. I am having sui intrusive thinking and it's horrible. The biggest enemy in me recovering is me, and I am apparently stubborn as fu**.
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Oct 16, 2013 at 07:22 PM
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Yesterday was really hard for me. The urges were so intense, I thought I would give in but I cried a lot and talked to a crisis counselor which stopped me from SI. I'm glad I didn't give in but it's getting really hard
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