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imnotokayipromise · Oct 16, 2013 at 11:28 PM

Excessive urges today. Trying to stay strong but kind of failing.. hoping I'll be alright.

Blue_Bird · Oct 17, 2013 at 12:21 AM

No urges today. Exercising has been helping me ope with the urges

Oct 17, 2013 at 12:01 PM

didon't really have the thoughts this morning, but by about 1 pm i had triggered myself by accident with a show i liked- and i really went for it

tealBumblebee · Oct 17, 2013 at 01:47 PM

I can't tell if i'm having urges or ideation. But I can literally feel the desire to do it in my chest and it's almost making me light headed. Hasn't been this prominent in my brain space in a while. I don't feel like I can't resist it, but i'm not really enjoying these physical reactions my body is having to not doing it. Can't win for losing I guess.

Anyways, keeping my mood up - so that's always good.

bronzeowl · Oct 17, 2013 at 04:15 PM

No urges today. Actually in a fairly decent mood today. I think the worst is over for now.

Rzay4 · Oct 17, 2013 at 10:34 PM

Had long day so sadly SI twice though no scar for now

nicoleb2 · Oct 17, 2013 at 10:47 PM

Haven't been here in a long time. 23.5 weeks pregnant and had been doing well. Sick and in pain, depression is bad, and I want so badly to cut today. Thankfully, no action on it so far because I want to keep this baby safe!

Grey Matter · Oct 18, 2013 at 01:53 AM

I am nearly at a month, so when I get urges I just keep reminding myself I am almost there.

Sterella · Oct 18, 2013 at 11:35 AM

Urges are terrible. Trying to cope by helping others. I keep telling myself to stay distracted, and that its not worth it.

tealBumblebee · Oct 18, 2013 at 11:44 AM

Much better day than yesterday. I emailed T about it last night and its almost like all of my urges went through the computer and off my chest/mind/out of my head. Woke up this morning in a rather cheerful mood. Spent the first half of the day entertaining the kids (shopping, nature walk, chalking the ground) and still no urges!

Grey Matter · Oct 19, 2013 at 01:35 PM

Relapsed last night. I am really frustrated and angry and upset about it. Back to zero. Back to failing myself.

Samanthagreene · Oct 19, 2013 at 03:40 PM

I really want to, but I can't let myself.

Oct 20, 2013 at 04:40 AM

been doing loads and loads.

struggling in so many ways

Blue_Bird · Oct 20, 2013 at 05:50 AM

I had urges that went beyond self harm last night, more like self end urges.... they're gone now though

breakmystride · Oct 21, 2013 at 12:25 AM

Now that it's long-sleeve weather and cuts are easier to hide, I'm getting the urge to cut in some new places. I'm not trying to quit, but I don't want my cutting to get worse to the point that I won't be able to hide it in the future, so those urges are bothering me.

imnotokayipromise · Oct 21, 2013 at 03:06 AM

Been doing pretty good today. Upped my meds - think that's working. Havent si'd since the 16th.

Oct 21, 2013 at 11:54 AM

deffenetly been doing it, but not like accessively

been working more on my legs

Oct 21, 2013 at 01:13 PM

Doing so bad lately. In a desperate attempt to stay on this planet I just cut myself pretty bad. Theres a lot of blood. But there isn't enough. And I can't even feel the pain

Blue_Bird · Oct 21, 2013 at 05:30 PM

No urges for the past 2 days

purplegiraffe1 · Oct 21, 2013 at 05:45 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I thought since other forums have this, this could be a place to check in how you're doing each day as far as urges go and how you're dealing with them. Today I've been doing alright, no urges.

I think I got it out of my system the other night.

Oh well, I'm still going to try to stop this behavior.

I've been 1 week since i actually SI'd, as far as urges go, It's been since yesterday.

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imnotokayipromise Member Member Since Oct 2013 Location: Nebraska Posts: 78 11 14 hugs given	Oct 16, 2013 at 11:28 PM #41 Excessive urges today. Trying to stay strong but kind of failing.. hoping I'll be alright. __________________ i wrote the gospel on giving up
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Middle Earth Posts: 37,510 (SuperPoster!) 11 15.1k hugs given	Oct 17, 2013 at 12:21 AM #42 No urges today. Exercising has been helping me ope with the urges __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Anonymous32451 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 17, 2013 at 12:01 PM #43 didon't really have the thoughts this morning, but by about 1 pm i had triggered myself by accident with a show i liked- and i really went for it
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bronzeowl Poohbah Member Since Jun 2011 Location: North Carolina Posts: 1,013 13 287 hugs given	Oct 17, 2013 at 04:15 PM #45 No urges today. Actually in a fairly decent mood today. I think the worst is over for now. __________________ Love is.. a baby smiling at you for the first time a dog curling up by your side... and your soulmate kissing your forehead when he thinks you're sound asleep OSFED\|MDD/PPD\|GAD\|gender dysphoria\|AvPD
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Rzay4 Veteran Member Member Since Oct 2013 Location: California Posts: 516 11 428 hugs given	Oct 17, 2013 at 10:34 PM #46 Had long day so sadly SI twice though no scar for now
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nicoleb2 Magnate Member Since Nov 2010 Location: Minnesota Posts: 2,439 13 25 hugs given	Oct 17, 2013 at 10:47 PM #47 Haven't been here in a long time. 23.5 weeks pregnant and had been doing well. Sick and in pain, depression is bad, and I want so badly to cut today. Thankfully, no action on it so far because I want to keep this baby safe!
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Grey Matter Magnate Member Since Jul 2013 Location: hippocampus Posts: 2,379 11 962 hugs given	Oct 18, 2013 at 01:53 AM #48 I am nearly at a month, so when I get urges I just keep reminding myself I am almost there. __________________ “You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering.”.
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Sterella Member Member Since Apr 2012 Location: Lala land Posts: 145 12 67 hugs given	Oct 18, 2013 at 11:35 AM #49 Urges are terrible. Trying to cope by helping others. I keep telling myself to stay distracted, and that its not worth it.
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Grey Matter Magnate Member Since Jul 2013 Location: hippocampus Posts: 2,379 11 962 hugs given	Oct 19, 2013 at 01:35 PM #51 Relapsed last night. I am really frustrated and angry and upset about it. Back to zero. Back to failing myself. __________________ “You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering.”.
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Samanthagreene Veteran Member Member Since Jul 2013 Location: The Third Dimension Posts: 527 11 567 hugs given	Oct 19, 2013 at 03:40 PM #52 I really want to, but I can't let myself. __________________ I hope you have a really great day.
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Anonymous32451 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 20, 2013 at 04:40 AM #53 been doing loads and loads. struggling in so many ways
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Middle Earth Posts: 37,510 (SuperPoster!) 11 15.1k hugs given	Oct 20, 2013 at 05:50 AM #54 I had urges that went beyond self harm last night, more like self end urges.... they're gone now though __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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breakmystride Member Member Since Sep 2013 Location: USA Posts: 289 11 28 hugs given	Oct 21, 2013 at 12:25 AM #55 Now that it's long-sleeve weather and cuts are easier to hide, I'm getting the urge to cut in some new places. I'm not trying to quit, but I don't want my cutting to get worse to the point that I won't be able to hide it in the future, so those urges are bothering me.
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imnotokayipromise Member Member Since Oct 2013 Location: Nebraska Posts: 78 11 14 hugs given	Oct 21, 2013 at 03:06 AM #56 Been doing pretty good today. Upped my meds - think that's working. Havent si'd since the 16th. __________________ i wrote the gospel on giving up
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Anonymous32451 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 21, 2013 at 11:54 AM #57 deffenetly been doing it, but not like accessively been working more on my legs
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Anonymous200125 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 21, 2013 at 01:13 PM #58 Doing so bad lately. In a desperate attempt to stay on this planet I just cut myself pretty bad. Theres a lot of blood. But there isn't enough. And I can't even feel the pain
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Middle Earth Posts: 37,510 (SuperPoster!) 11 15.1k hugs given	Oct 21, 2013 at 05:30 PM #59 No urges for the past 2 days __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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