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Oct 16, 2013 at 11:28 PM
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Excessive urges today. Trying to stay strong but kind of failing.. hoping I'll be alright.
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Oct 17, 2013 at 12:21 AM
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No urges today. Exercising has been helping me ope with the urges
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Oct 17, 2013 at 12:01 PM
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didon't really have the thoughts this morning, but by about 1 pm i had triggered myself by accident with a show i liked- and i really went for it
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Oct 17, 2013 at 01:47 PM
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I can't tell if i'm having urges or ideation. But I can literally feel the desire to do it in my chest and it's almost making me light headed. Hasn't been this prominent in my brain space in a while. I don't feel like I can't resist it, but i'm not really enjoying these physical reactions my body is having to not doing it. Can't win for losing I guess.
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Oct 17, 2013 at 04:15 PM
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No urges today. Actually in a fairly decent mood today. I think the worst is over for now.
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Oct 17, 2013 at 10:34 PM
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Had long day so sadly SI twice though no scar for now
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Oct 17, 2013 at 10:47 PM
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Haven't been here in a long time. 23.5 weeks pregnant and had been doing well. Sick and in pain, depression is bad, and I want so badly to cut today. Thankfully, no action on it so far because I want to keep this baby safe!
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Oct 18, 2013 at 01:53 AM
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I am nearly at a month, so when I get urges I just keep reminding myself I am almost there.
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Oct 18, 2013 at 11:35 AM
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Urges are terrible. Trying to cope by helping others. I keep telling myself to stay distracted, and that its not worth it.
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Oct 18, 2013 at 11:44 AM
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Much better day than yesterday. I emailed T about it last night and its almost like all of my urges went through the computer and off my chest/mind/out of my head. Woke up this morning in a rather cheerful mood. Spent the first half of the day entertaining the kids (shopping, nature walk, chalking the ground) and still no urges!
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Oct 19, 2013 at 01:35 PM
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Relapsed last night. I am really frustrated and angry and upset about it. Back to zero. Back to failing myself.
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Oct 19, 2013 at 03:40 PM
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I really want to, but I can't let myself.
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Oct 20, 2013 at 04:40 AM
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been doing loads and loads.
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Oct 20, 2013 at 05:50 AM
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I had urges that went beyond self harm last night, more like self end urges.... they're gone now though
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Oct 21, 2013 at 12:25 AM
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Now that it's long-sleeve weather and cuts are easier to hide, I'm getting the urge to cut in some new places. I'm not trying to quit, but I don't want my cutting to get worse to the point that I won't be able to hide it in the future, so those urges are bothering me.
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Oct 21, 2013 at 03:06 AM
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Been doing pretty good today. Upped my meds - think that's working. Havent si'd since the 16th.
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Oct 21, 2013 at 11:54 AM
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deffenetly been doing it, but not like accessively
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Oct 21, 2013 at 01:13 PM
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Doing so bad lately. In a desperate attempt to stay on this planet I just cut myself pretty bad. Theres a lot of blood. But there isn't enough. And I can't even feel the pain
 
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Oct 21, 2013 at 05:30 PM
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No urges for the past 2 days
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