[reesecups]

Just got out of my Tuesday group therapy. And after trying to help someone in the group I realized that I couldn't comment on some things because of my self-harming. I'm thinking I MAY turn in my razor blades Friday at group, to my therp. They've been trying to get me to do it since I started in March. I know it's mainly symbolic, since I obviously could get more. I've got to think about it more. Pretty scary to think of not having them within ways reach.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by reesecups

Just got out of my Tuesday group therapy. And after trying to help someone in the group I realized that I couldn't comment on some things because of my self-harming. I'm thinking I MAY turn in my razor blades Friday at group, to my therp. They've been trying to get me to do it since I started in March. I know it's mainly symbolic, since I obviously could get more. I've got to think about it more. Pretty scary to think of not having them within ways reach.

I hope you're able to turn in your razor blades. I know it's mainly symbolic as you said but it's still a big step to let go of something like that, I'm sure it's a difficult thing to do

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I hope you're able to turn in your razor blades. I know it's mainly symbolic as you said but it's still a big step to let go of something like that, I'm sure it's a difficult thing to do

Thank you. Yes. I'm anxious just thinking of being without them. I haven't cut since July, but still get the impulses on occasions. My fear is also if I give them up I'll obsess over not having them and go out and buy more even if I don't have the impulse at the moment to use them. They're sort of like a security blanket. You know?

[reesecups]

Update. I did give my case manager my razors today. She knows I have never done this before, so she was very happy for me. I told her I couldn't promise anything but to try and deal with problems without cutting. So right now, I'm not panicking but am trying not to think about them being gone.

[tealBumblebee]

Thats so awesome!! Great job!

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by tealBumblebee

Thats so awesome!! Great job!

Thank you!

[CrimsonBlues]

Hi reesecups-Good for you! It sounds like you have supportive people around you, which is wonderful. I wish you well.

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by CrimsonBlues

Hi reesecups-Good for you! It sounds like you have supportive people around you, which is wonderful. I wish you well.

Thank you. Yes, for the first time I feel really supported. I just hope I have enough coping skills to prevent cutting again.

[mazing]

That's fantastic Well done. You can do this. It is hard at times but it is possible to get through by relying on the supportive people around you and other coping skills.

Good luck

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by mazing

That's fantastic Well done. You can do this. It is hard at times but it is possible to get through by relying on the supportive people around you and other coping skills.

Good luck

I'm going to try. Thanks.

So far, so good. I thought I would be scared for a while but I've been okay after the first day. Thanks to all for their support.

[falsememory7]

I just read this post for the first time, and I'm also so proud of you! I'm recovering from cutting, so I know how hard it is to not do it, and to deal with the urges and desires to... Although you can get new razor blades, the fact that you turned them in is one of the BIGGEST steps that you could take, and that's so amazing. You inspire me so much

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by falsememory7

I just read this post for the first time, and I'm also so proud of you! I'm recovering from cutting, so I know how hard it is to not do it, and to deal with the urges and desires to... Although you can get new razor blades, the fact that you turned them in is one of the BIGGEST steps that you could take, and that's so amazing. You inspire me so much

Thanks. I'm blushing.

[Angel of Bedlam]

I have never done group but giving my boyfriend my blades was so hard. I had so many that I had stashed that I felt like my security blanket was gone. In the long run it was very helpful getting rid of them even though I resorted to different methods of self-harm in extreme situations (burning, scratching till I bled, etc) but I am now over a month and knowing that my blades aren't stashed around the house makes it a lot easier to not harm. Good luck to you, I hope you can do it!

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[reesecups]

Originally Posted by Angel of Bedlam

I have never done group but giving my boyfriend my blades was so hard. I had so many that I had stashed that I felt like my security blanket was gone. In the long run it was very helpful getting rid of them even though I resorted to different methods of self-harm in extreme situations (burning, scratching till I bled, etc) but I am now over a month and knowing that my blades aren't stashed around the house makes it a lot easier to not harm. Good luck to you, I hope you can do it!

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Thank you. So far, so good. Take Care.

[reesecups]

Update: went to group for the first time since turning in the blades. My case manager made it a special point to check and see how I was doing today. I know all therapists at group are now aware of what went on, but only one who used to be my case manager as well as my pdoc has mentioned it and told me they were happy that I had done so well. I don't know how I'll feel about it the first time a crisis hits, but for now, i's a relief to not have them around me, after the initial fear.

[Angel of Bedlam]

So awesome!!!!

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[mazing]

That's great Glad to hear it is all going well so far.

[reesecups]

Thanks. Yes, so far, so good. Take Care.

Well done

[reesecups]

Originally Posted by Supanova

Well done

Thank you. So far, I'm doing okay. I almost feel free, but can't trust myself until my first major crisis and to see how I deal with it.

[reesecups]

So far, no impulse to cut. I've been a little depressed, but not enough to SI. Just some circumstances going on right now. I can't believe how long it has been! Thanks for everyone's support!